Hi people there ! ^^
Today is my birthday . Hhahaaha , to me is like another brand new day will pass . so yea ! hahah ,
I wont expect anything anymore ! (: all through im .. -.-
Today was a great , nothing much or big . i went to slack with Joel , Amanda.T , Chealee (sorry , dear i do not know how to spell your name .) , Nick , and Nick best friend (i don know your name ><) ..
You know what , Joel made for me a cover !! His singing is so great in the video . ^^ (Nice singing Joel ! )
Everybody wishes me Happy Birthday who i slack with today ! Im so happy as i did not expected it , (: I am so glad about it !! ^^
But im shag was my best sister i dote alot did not wish me . But i told myself i do not expecting anything from you too .. i know its sound hurtful .. whatever . if you think friends you are hanging out with is more important than me go ahead then , i no longer the past me that keep questioning myself like , "why you did not this and that and whatever already .. " I think that i had care to much toward you that you do not even bother about it . I always think about what you felt and so , but you never care about me much . You only guide me through what is wrong or right . I am sure that i appreciated it , but have you ever concern about am i happy ?? i wants a true friend that will made me happy , care about me , ask my day , mostly do not neglect me or ditch me and so ~ ...
Am i expecting too much from you ?? or we do not even suit each other ?
I do not know . That maybe i am sensitive after all ?
Seriously , i am tired and sick of everything . I always run toward you went you go away from me , neglected or ditch me and waited for you to back to my side when you think your friends that usually hang out with was not the good friends after all .
I am human i will feel tired after all , can you stop all the things that you are doing to me ... I wants you back my best friend ! ><
can you stop shattered my heart ? although i did not say anything , do not mean that i don feel anything ):
My heart seriously will feel nothing one day . As it is use to every single things already ...
That why she need a break , she MIA away from you and all her friends she loved so badly .
But after my MIA i able to see who is there and concern about me .. Thanks ! ((:
Life may not what i expected so fantastic and awesome , what no matter how big the obstacle i can meet , i will find through the way . i will stand on my feet now , and learn to start walking with my feet alone ..
This is me who had turn into a stronger girl that you ever expected now . I had come this way in a hard long miserable days , but yea ! I will ever want to regret the decision i made or even walking back .. NEVER ! and i wants somebody to be proud of me ! and the words i wants to hear ..
I will work for what i wants to hear and get already ! What comes and leaves i will not expecting any . This is me , AMANDA ! CAOS ! ~ <3
22.4.12 @ Sunday, April 22, 2012