so upset today . meeting crabby at 7.45 but something went bad . ):
everythings is a misunderstanding ! ):
tution principal said i will be having tution until 9.30
so i told crabby that i will be dismiss at 9.30
he is so nice that , he waited for me for long hours .
but maths teacher dismiss me early , i went out of the tution centre to look for him .
tot he haven reach and he will be late . so i went sit beside the sliming down drink stall waiting for him . but to avail . so i went to aunty there to help up and touch up my drawing .
dhn i was like a crazy mad women , running there and here , because of my parent .
when i reached home , parent talked to me nicely , that you were sitting at the side of the parking lot . im seriously , i didnt notice you . if parent didnt talk to me about it , i wont know this matter . Crabby , please ! in the future don ever sit there ! there is very oh-lu the place cant see you de . plus there is very dangerous for you too ! if the driver lost out of control , ur life may gone ! PLEASE PLEASE ! Take care of urself properly !
CRABBY , IM REALLY SORRY THAT YOU HAD WASTED UR HOURS OF TIME WAITING FOR ME ! IM REALYY SORRY , SORRY .. ));
i know , my one word of sorry don cure ur hatre , but only i can say is SORRY . but bottom of my heart , what i saying now is all true , i didnt lie to you . and most important is i did DUA you . i really didnt see you sitting there .
i hope that you really can forgive you .
i will never forget the words to told me in the phone .
'let not be friend ! ' the moment i heard this , i collape in almost every where .
aunty asking me , what happen , to no avail , i speak out , and the moment i speak , i , myself had broken down . i cry . words are really hurting . words are like mashing me up . )); althought you may be had forgive me , somehow , i have a feeling that you didnt . and im totally feeling guilty too . )); those are jus in my mind recurring and recurring non stop . ));
whenever i break down , i never wants anyone to see or even know i cried . i will just tell the person off , i didnt . im pretty fine ! but truely in my heart it is not fine at all , who can see that ??
guessing there is nobody can see or even know .
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