Hmph, thinking back... im so stupid so dumb... but i choose to do it. And i had done it.. in the end i could not get any thing in return... what i got was he left me.... i help him so much... hmph.. this is what i get.. i tried to called you, did not pick up. Awhile later returned my call but did not talk... what is this? If you really don wish to talk to me.. tell me off.. importantly, if you wans to leave me jus say so.. don leave me without saying anything.. this is how you wan it to eond? I don know why you effect me alot. And very important in my life... when you leave me, i felt very empty.. i had over concern about ur feeling and started to hide my feeling....
14.1.13 @ Monday, January 14, 2013
31.12.12 @ Monday, December 31, 2012
hi guy, im back to blog again.
little mood swing today..
im confused..
im in the wrong or what..
i don feel im wrong...
i jus don feel like going to didii house that time..
only once i told him.. he had mia like 2 day..
serious... can somebody understand me...
when i understand others, who is there to understand me?
when i concern others, who is there to concern about me?
who is it?
everytime, i don feel like doing a thing, i jus do for the sake of doing.
don find the reason of doing it..
i felt like i have nobody with me..
im alone in the whole.
nobody would see me.
my concern to them, were so be it.
my understanding were so be it too.
what am i to others?
what am i in this world for?
why? why don i know how to appreciate things, when it is with me..
why it is when things gone, i learn to....
why?
i don understand...
when i wan to treasure it but i don know how to..
i treat ppl, how i want them to treat me.
but in the end i don get what i wan..
i really don know what to do..
im lost. but there is nobody to guide me.
im in the darkness alone. there is no shine to guide me.
the shine had left me a year ago..
i start to miss the shine..
but i would not help it.
i really regret over dose myself..
ended in the condition, i don wished to ended in..
i have bad memories now.
i have slow thinking now.
simply said im stupid now..
in the past i did all this stuff as i could not put down my stupid past i had..
what i wan i couldn get..
what i wan to do, i cant...
i regret slitting myself too.
as after slitting, the pain still come.
the hurt i should not have, had come to me too.
is dumb, very dumb what i had did..
one by one left me, what can i do?
nothing.
my close ones, think im this kind of person, what can i do?
nothing.
now i left with hatre in heart..
nobody know.
faking a smile to move on.
i went playful and crazy, didn wan anyone to know im upset...
ppl tot i crazy and playfu at time only. but im not.
i jus wan to be happy and crazy to get over my saddness..
am i really in the wrong??
little mood swing today..
im confused..
im in the wrong or what..
i don feel im wrong...
i jus don feel like going to didii house that time..
only once i told him.. he had mia like 2 day..
serious... can somebody understand me...
when i understand others, who is there to understand me?
when i concern others, who is there to concern about me?
who is it?
everytime, i don feel like doing a thing, i jus do for the sake of doing.
don find the reason of doing it..
i felt like i have nobody with me..
im alone in the whole.
nobody would see me.
my concern to them, were so be it.
my understanding were so be it too.
what am i to others?
what am i in this world for?
why? why don i know how to appreciate things, when it is with me..
why it is when things gone, i learn to....
why?
i don understand...
when i wan to treasure it but i don know how to..
i treat ppl, how i want them to treat me.
but in the end i don get what i wan..
i really don know what to do..
im lost. but there is nobody to guide me.
im in the darkness alone. there is no shine to guide me.
the shine had left me a year ago..
i start to miss the shine..
but i would not help it.
i really regret over dose myself..
ended in the condition, i don wished to ended in..
i have bad memories now.
i have slow thinking now.
simply said im stupid now..
in the past i did all this stuff as i could not put down my stupid past i had..
what i wan i couldn get..
what i wan to do, i cant...
i regret slitting myself too.
as after slitting, the pain still come.
the hurt i should not have, had come to me too.
is dumb, very dumb what i had did..
one by one left me, what can i do?
nothing.
my close ones, think im this kind of person, what can i do?
nothing.
now i left with hatre in heart..
nobody know.
faking a smile to move on.
i went playful and crazy, didn wan anyone to know im upset...
ppl tot i crazy and playfu at time only. but im not.
i jus wan to be happy and crazy to get over my saddness..
am i really in the wrong??
3.12.12 @ Monday, December 03, 2012
i finally regreted and know what is called treasure what i have now..
i may have many friends in this world. but i only could have one close friend.. in the past i have 2 group of close friends but i didn know how to treasure it.. now then i know, both of them treat me differently. one of the group treat me were very good to me, talking nicely to me.. while another one is treating me..... knowing what is good and bad now.... but all is too late... i cant get them back anymore... i wan them back when i really had realised it..
i could only miss the past i had....
i may have many friends in this world. but i only could have one close friend.. in the past i have 2 group of close friends but i didn know how to treasure it.. now then i know, both of them treat me differently. one of the group treat me were very good to me, talking nicely to me.. while another one is treating me..... knowing what is good and bad now.... but all is too late... i cant get them back anymore... i wan them back when i really had realised it..
i could only miss the past i had....
2.12.12 @ Sunday, December 02, 2012
hii. back to blog once again.
hmmm. things don goes well recently. quarrel with dii till we had severtile. didn know what yo do.. daily thinking of him:/ words he said in fb was hurting. till now it is hurting...
everything had gone to history?
this is how i lose a close ones?
am i walking the same path like my mum??
amanda...
hmmm. things don goes well recently. quarrel with dii till we had severtile. didn know what yo do.. daily thinking of him:/ words he said in fb was hurting. till now it is hurting...
everything had gone to history?
this is how i lose a close ones?
am i walking the same path like my mum??
amanda...
23.8.12 @ Thursday, August 23, 2012
am i in the wrong now?
am totally confuse now..
was all my effort , is a waste?
i am not stable now..
am totally confuse now..
was all my effort , is a waste?
i am not stable now..
15.8.12 @ Wednesday, August 15, 2012
on 31july 12 , i tot we are no longer friend...
but 6 august we meet up again...
im really very glad to meet him^^
from then we being friend back once again :D
his attitude change hugely within that period which is good...
after we quarrel, you seem to go back to the past attitude you have that i don like... T.T
i really regreted what i said to you. i should kept it dhn saying it out.... everything changed to back to the past..... is all my fault... ); i wan that past ....
i learnt my mistake already... i should kept what is my tot..... i think internally of myself i should have a secret box for myself...
sorryy gab, i didn know you would not take comments. im sorry i offended you. i never wan to, however jus wan to tell you off for ur better, but you got me wrong.. sorry luhh, i will shut my fxck up next time alreadyy..
sister, i am a fake one to you right? ..
whatever you like to think about me..
i will die at this moment of the day...
am no longer exist... bye sister i love you truely! (:
but 6 august we meet up again...
im really very glad to meet him^^
from then we being friend back once again :D
his attitude change hugely within that period which is good...
after we quarrel, you seem to go back to the past attitude you have that i don like... T.T
i really regreted what i said to you. i should kept it dhn saying it out.... everything changed to back to the past..... is all my fault... ); i wan that past ....
i learnt my mistake already... i should kept what is my tot..... i think internally of myself i should have a secret box for myself...
sorryy gab, i didn know you would not take comments. im sorry i offended you. i never wan to, however jus wan to tell you off for ur better, but you got me wrong.. sorry luhh, i will shut my fxck up next time alreadyy..
sister, i am a fake one to you right? ..
whatever you like to think about me..
i will die at this moment of the day...
am no longer exist... bye sister i love you truely! (:
16.7.12 @ Monday, July 16, 2012
yesterday 15 of July.
Just came home not long ago.
I went to tuition today in the afternoon around 3. Actually started at 2.30, im late as i slack at home, wasted
a lot of time to prepare. :p
After my tuition, i did called Gab bro, but i could get through.
So i thought that his phone had out of cash or it is off so i didnt bother. And hopeful i can meet him on Monday.
Daddy asked me out to slack with them after my tuition. I went to hougang pack shop to met him together with Ahma.
Until to the night i called Gab bro again, i still cant through too. So i asked RuiLong sister come out.
Gab bro called in, when Daddy's parent car came . He fought with me in the phone.
I really did call you the whole day but i just cant get through. Ended up is it my fault?
End of the call, i felt of shed tears. But my Ahma, talked to me and tell me cheer up and stuffs.
I tried to not to think about that matters. Kenny Mummy made everyone laugh like a mad person too. HAHAHA.
Around 920, we had left hougang , and waited for 119 bus home.
went up to the bus, the feeling of sorrow came in so freely..
feeling sad from just now... feeling so terrible now...):
Just came home not long ago.
I went to tuition today in the afternoon around 3. Actually started at 2.30, im late as i slack at home, wasted
a lot of time to prepare. :p
After my tuition, i did called Gab bro, but i could get through.
So i thought that his phone had out of cash or it is off so i didnt bother. And hopeful i can meet him on Monday.
Daddy asked me out to slack with them after my tuition. I went to hougang pack shop to met him together with Ahma.
Until to the night i called Gab bro again, i still cant through too. So i asked RuiLong sister come out.
Gab bro called in, when Daddy's parent car came . He fought with me in the phone.
I really did call you the whole day but i just cant get through. Ended up is it my fault?
End of the call, i felt of shed tears. But my Ahma, talked to me and tell me cheer up and stuffs.
I tried to not to think about that matters. Kenny Mummy made everyone laugh like a mad person too. HAHAHA.
Around 920, we had left hougang , and waited for 119 bus home.
went up to the bus, the feeling of sorrow came in so freely..
feeling sad from just now... feeling so terrible now...):
9.7.12 @ Monday, July 09, 2012
Today is 09 of july.
was a fxcking bad day of my life.
had art coursework in school, teacher told me that my dad look for him, straight in my mind was this small matter even wan to complain, want a explaination from my teacher. PLEASE!!! use ur fxcking mind can! doing this you think you very big? NO! you are fxcking throwing my face off.. since you don gave me a fxcking face, so sorry hor! i wont give a fxck giving it urs!!!
Heard Gabriel bro, could wake up for his work. i am so disappointed. EXTEMELY! ): he is sick, i understand, you took medi you will have the kick and all shit. but what time you went home, you should know better off luhh. forget all the matter, every time wanted ppl to listen to you. but didn you ever listen to me? because of her you stay up so late. worth it? you said you don like her and stuffs, i really FXCKING don understand why you like tpo stick to her. i don know luhh, if i still have the ability, i will advice you on. touchwood, if i don have the ability, dhn way good luck and take well care of yourself.
i don like her. Gabriel bro, when can you stop to meet her? ): i don wan you to bring me down together to meet her too! i fxcking hate her !!! >< when i with her, i don feel good. i feel very uneasy, even im under her block.. you wont understand how my uncomfortable too. :/ there is no point telling you too. T.T
Ask me to treat you as sis, but what have you done? right after paying ur cab fare straight go to compass point? ask me go with you. but my dress, im not comfortable wearing it to so open area. close area im fine. after that i didn follow you, after ur dinner at there you aso didn look for me. you aso look for sherlyn. i don know you well luhh, wheneven you are with her and ur clique all, ur attitude like shit luhhh. that why i don like you staying there luh )): calling me told me want to look for me is jus a sweet talk? ): i really don need all the sweet talk. if you wan to stay and look for her go ahead i wont stop you. jus go and spend ur time enjoying there. im really fine already. im used to everything. i don understand, you think im a sxck person, why still wan me as ur friend. you have sherlyn so good sis with you. why? i don get it. )): don you really wish me to fxck off from ur life? ):
i really don know, what am i to you?? you made me feel that im been used by you. i really cock up like shit luhhh. im stress with every single shity happened around me..
what is it now?? what is going on now?? T.T
P.s : i don have the dare to tell you all this. im afraid.. ):
was a fxcking bad day of my life.
had art coursework in school, teacher told me that my dad look for him, straight in my mind was this small matter even wan to complain, want a explaination from my teacher. PLEASE!!! use ur fxcking mind can! doing this you think you very big? NO! you are fxcking throwing my face off.. since you don gave me a fxcking face, so sorry hor! i wont give a fxck giving it urs!!!
Heard Gabriel bro, could wake up for his work. i am so disappointed. EXTEMELY! ): he is sick, i understand, you took medi you will have the kick and all shit. but what time you went home, you should know better off luhh. forget all the matter, every time wanted ppl to listen to you. but didn you ever listen to me? because of her you stay up so late. worth it? you said you don like her and stuffs, i really FXCKING don understand why you like tpo stick to her. i don know luhh, if i still have the ability, i will advice you on. touchwood, if i don have the ability, dhn way good luck and take well care of yourself.
i don like her. Gabriel bro, when can you stop to meet her? ): i don wan you to bring me down together to meet her too! i fxcking hate her !!! >< when i with her, i don feel good. i feel very uneasy, even im under her block.. you wont understand how my uncomfortable too. :/ there is no point telling you too. T.T
Ask me to treat you as sis, but what have you done? right after paying ur cab fare straight go to compass point? ask me go with you. but my dress, im not comfortable wearing it to so open area. close area im fine. after that i didn follow you, after ur dinner at there you aso didn look for me. you aso look for sherlyn. i don know you well luhh, wheneven you are with her and ur clique all, ur attitude like shit luhhh. that why i don like you staying there luh )): calling me told me want to look for me is jus a sweet talk? ): i really don need all the sweet talk. if you wan to stay and look for her go ahead i wont stop you. jus go and spend ur time enjoying there. im really fine already. im used to everything. i don understand, you think im a sxck person, why still wan me as ur friend. you have sherlyn so good sis with you. why? i don get it. )): don you really wish me to fxck off from ur life? ):
i really don know, what am i to you?? you made me feel that im been used by you. i really cock up like shit luhhh. im stress with every single shity happened around me..
what is it now?? what is going on now?? T.T
P.s : i don have the dare to tell you all this. im afraid.. ):
Labels: she is dying slowing by days..
5.7.12 @ Thursday, July 05, 2012
Today, i went to school. Freaking tired. slept at 2 yesterday.
Today was waste of a day. i am in school from morning till night around 5 pm.
Afterward, i went home, waitied from my dinner to be back.
Right after my dinner, i went to find sebastian to slack actually as i miss him my friend. ^^But i find an exsuses to use his com. But actually i didn wan to use his com.
730 i went to tuition. Right after my tuition, i went to find him again! :D Slacked at his house since 928 pm, slept at his house around half an hour and i woke up as my phone vibrated. Hahahah. >< after that sebastian look at me!! OMGGG!! >< Sebastian need to bath, so i made a move home. (:
But i am shag after my sleep. I didn know why. As maybe i am shag because of my sister. :/ He didn seem to be understanding me. :( In the past i am looking forward to ur call, but now whenever i see ur call, i am afraid to recieve ur call now. :( I hate that feeling. T.T I wan to discard the feeling i have it now. What am i surpose to do?
I wish to open up to sebastian, but i have no gut to open up to him. I am still not ready to open up to him. Sometime in my mind have the words to tell him all. But i don have the gut to tell him ): Sebastian, i am sorry that i could not open up to you when i am upset. I still use to keep everything to myself whenever i feel down. Unless i really fucking cant stand the feeling i am having. Sebastian, i will try to ((:
Today was waste of a day. i am in school from morning till night around 5 pm.
Afterward, i went home, waitied from my dinner to be back.
Right after my dinner, i went to find sebastian to slack actually as i miss him my friend. ^^But i find an exsuses to use his com. But actually i didn wan to use his com.
730 i went to tuition. Right after my tuition, i went to find him again! :D Slacked at his house since 928 pm, slept at his house around half an hour and i woke up as my phone vibrated. Hahahah. >< after that sebastian look at me!! OMGGG!! >< Sebastian need to bath, so i made a move home. (:
But i am shag after my sleep. I didn know why. As maybe i am shag because of my sister. :/ He didn seem to be understanding me. :( In the past i am looking forward to ur call, but now whenever i see ur call, i am afraid to recieve ur call now. :( I hate that feeling. T.T I wan to discard the feeling i have it now. What am i surpose to do?
I wish to open up to sebastian, but i have no gut to open up to him. I am still not ready to open up to him. Sometime in my mind have the words to tell him all. But i don have the gut to tell him ): Sebastian, i am sorry that i could not open up to you when i am upset. I still use to keep everything to myself whenever i feel down. Unless i really fucking cant stand the feeling i am having. Sebastian, i will try to ((:
22.4.12 @ Sunday, April 22, 2012
Hi people there ! ^^
Today is my birthday . Hhahaaha , to me is like another brand new day will pass . so yea ! hahah ,
I wont expect anything anymore ! (: all through im .. -.-
Today was a great , nothing much or big . i went to slack with Joel , Amanda.T , Chealee (sorry , dear i do not know how to spell your name .) , Nick , and Nick best friend (i don know your name ><) ..
You know what , Joel made for me a cover !! His singing is so great in the video . ^^ (Nice singing Joel ! )
Everybody wishes me Happy Birthday who i slack with today ! Im so happy as i did not expected it , (: I am so glad about it !! ^^
But im shag was my best sister i dote alot did not wish me . But i told myself i do not expecting anything from you too .. i know its sound hurtful .. whatever . if you think friends you are hanging out with is more important than me go ahead then , i no longer the past me that keep questioning myself like , "why you did not this and that and whatever already .. " I think that i had care to much toward you that you do not even bother about it . I always think about what you felt and so , but you never care about me much . You only guide me through what is wrong or right . I am sure that i appreciated it , but have you ever concern about am i happy ?? i wants a true friend that will made me happy , care about me , ask my day , mostly do not neglect me or ditch me and so ~ ...
Am i expecting too much from you ?? or we do not even suit each other ?
I do not know . That maybe i am sensitive after all ?
Seriously , i am tired and sick of everything . I always run toward you went you go away from me , neglected or ditch me and waited for you to back to my side when you think your friends that usually hang out with was not the good friends after all .
I am human i will feel tired after all , can you stop all the things that you are doing to me ... I wants you back my best friend ! ><
can you stop shattered my heart ? although i did not say anything , do not mean that i don feel anything ):
My heart seriously will feel nothing one day . As it is use to every single things already ...
That why she need a break , she MIA away from you and all her friends she loved so badly .
But after my MIA i able to see who is there and concern about me .. Thanks ! ((:
Life may not what i expected so fantastic and awesome , what no matter how big the obstacle i can meet , i will find through the way . i will stand on my feet now , and learn to start walking with my feet alone ..
This is me who had turn into a stronger girl that you ever expected now . I had come this way in a hard long miserable days , but yea ! I will ever want to regret the decision i made or even walking back .. NEVER ! and i wants somebody to be proud of me ! and the words i wants to hear ..
I will work for what i wants to hear and get already ! What comes and leaves i will not expecting any . This is me , AMANDA ! CAOS ! ~ <3
Today is my birthday . Hhahaaha , to me is like another brand new day will pass . so yea ! hahah ,
I wont expect anything anymore ! (: all through im .. -.-
Today was a great , nothing much or big . i went to slack with Joel , Amanda.T , Chealee (sorry , dear i do not know how to spell your name .) , Nick , and Nick best friend (i don know your name ><) ..
You know what , Joel made for me a cover !! His singing is so great in the video . ^^ (Nice singing Joel ! )
Everybody wishes me Happy Birthday who i slack with today ! Im so happy as i did not expected it , (: I am so glad about it !! ^^
But im shag was my best sister i dote alot did not wish me . But i told myself i do not expecting anything from you too .. i know its sound hurtful .. whatever . if you think friends you are hanging out with is more important than me go ahead then , i no longer the past me that keep questioning myself like , "why you did not this and that and whatever already .. " I think that i had care to much toward you that you do not even bother about it . I always think about what you felt and so , but you never care about me much . You only guide me through what is wrong or right . I am sure that i appreciated it , but have you ever concern about am i happy ?? i wants a true friend that will made me happy , care about me , ask my day , mostly do not neglect me or ditch me and so ~ ...
Am i expecting too much from you ?? or we do not even suit each other ?
I do not know . That maybe i am sensitive after all ?
Seriously , i am tired and sick of everything . I always run toward you went you go away from me , neglected or ditch me and waited for you to back to my side when you think your friends that usually hang out with was not the good friends after all .
I am human i will feel tired after all , can you stop all the things that you are doing to me ... I wants you back my best friend ! ><
can you stop shattered my heart ? although i did not say anything , do not mean that i don feel anything ):
My heart seriously will feel nothing one day . As it is use to every single things already ...
That why she need a break , she MIA away from you and all her friends she loved so badly .
But after my MIA i able to see who is there and concern about me .. Thanks ! ((:
Life may not what i expected so fantastic and awesome , what no matter how big the obstacle i can meet , i will find through the way . i will stand on my feet now , and learn to start walking with my feet alone ..
This is me who had turn into a stronger girl that you ever expected now . I had come this way in a hard long miserable days , but yea ! I will ever want to regret the decision i made or even walking back .. NEVER ! and i wants somebody to be proud of me ! and the words i wants to hear ..
I will work for what i wants to hear and get already ! What comes and leaves i will not expecting any . This is me , AMANDA ! CAOS ! ~ <3
5.4.12 @ Thursday, April 05, 2012
Hmmm . Hello , i felt that i did have once truely love a person . Maybe i am playful .. Hahhaa . But i truefully love my sister and brother ! (:
but sometime i went out with them , i felt like i am being extra going out with them . I love them , but i could feel their love back ... :/ my heart is going rot soon ... i mean is rotting .. Rotting to a cold blooded human !
crabby had change to better , i can see ... But i feel i am not good enough to be ur sister . That why i even said i didn wan to stay in this world or born in the world .. Life is so fxck and bytch ..
Sorry to those who loved me so much but i hurt you by saying this ..
but sometime i went out with them , i felt like i am being extra going out with them . I love them , but i could feel their love back ... :/ my heart is going rot soon ... i mean is rotting .. Rotting to a cold blooded human !
crabby had change to better , i can see ... But i feel i am not good enough to be ur sister . That why i even said i didn wan to stay in this world or born in the world .. Life is so fxck and bytch ..
Sorry to those who loved me so much but i hurt you by saying this ..
16.3.12 @ Friday, March 16, 2012
Promise me, you won't forget how our laughs, our jokes, our smiles, our memories, our friendship that how it is build up ! (: i really treasure you as my close dear friends, Gabriel , Kevin & Joel((: <3
15.3.12 @ Thursday, March 15, 2012
虽然你比我聪明过人。
可是我不是像你同类的。
跟你比,我是慢很多。
不要因为我慢学不会而抛弃我。
请你对我有点耐心,教我,持导我。。和提醒我。
我回想我们做过每一件大大小小的事。我们的回忆都很精彩可笑。
不要把这样的友情解了 虽然你比我聪明过人。
可是我不是像你同类的。
跟你比,我是慢很多。
不要因为我慢学不会而抛弃我。
请你对我有点耐心,教我,持导我。。和提醒我。
我回想我们做过每一件大大小小的事。我们的回忆都很精彩可笑。
不要把这样的友情解了 ,好吗 ?? 。。
可是我不是像你同类的。
跟你比,我是慢很多。
不要因为我慢学不会而抛弃我。
请你对我有点耐心,教我,持导我。。和提醒我。
我回想我们做过每一件大大小小的事。我们的回忆都很精彩可笑。
不要把这样的友情解了 虽然你比我聪明过人。
可是我不是像你同类的。
跟你比,我是慢很多。
不要因为我慢学不会而抛弃我。
请你对我有点耐心,教我,持导我。。和提醒我。
我回想我们做过每一件大大小小的事。我们的回忆都很精彩可笑。
不要把这样的友情解了 ,好吗 ?? 。。
14.3.12 @ Wednesday, March 14, 2012
When will you understanding me abit ?
When you really cant make it , do i still ask you go with me ? Sometime . Ohh , is okay . Next time .
When you really cant make it , do i still ask you go with me ? Sometime . Ohh , is okay . Next time .
@ Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Am i a person that are something had left me , and start to learn to precious things ?
@ Wednesday, March 14, 2012
Life is always unfair .
Treatment ppl give will tend to be different . Ppl can look down on you but never look down on urself . Work hard , study hard and in future you can prove those ppl that look down on you ((: is a win win solution !! :D -thumb up- actually this is not come from me is one of my dad cousin teach me . I really salute her ! her result she have today , is really amazing !
Treatment ppl give will tend to be different . Ppl can look down on you but never look down on urself . Work hard , study hard and in future you can prove those ppl that look down on you ((: is a win win solution !! :D -thumb up- actually this is not come from me is one of my dad cousin teach me . I really salute her ! her result she have today , is really amazing !
11.3.12 @ Sunday, March 11, 2012
我在也网不回你信任了。
我在多努力,你也不会在给我你的信任。
我多努力你也不在户。
我多努力你也看不到,盟了双眼。
我要回你的信任,我该怎么办?
我快要疯愧了。
好希望你会像一前的你。。
我在多努力,你也不会在给我你的信任。
我多努力你也不在户。
我多努力你也看不到,盟了双眼。
我要回你的信任,我该怎么办?
我快要疯愧了。
好希望你会像一前的你。。
19.2.12 @ Sunday, February 19, 2012
Hmmmm . Sorry ppl , i had long time didn post on my blog :x heheheh . Haiiii . Life is still the same (: shag for some matter . How i wish i can go somwhere else that nobody know my status of me . Start my new life there and all ((: i wish to go to state like paris . ^^ is that counted as state ? :o hahaha . :p im fine luhh :>
9.12.11 @ Friday, December 09, 2011
I don know now the thinking i have now , is it correct or wrong . )); for sister sake , doing all this is okay . But is it okay ?? :/ thinking positive . Could i able to now ? i don think so .
Not everythings need to ask for repay . But afraid that other will take advantage of it . Am not trying to say he is . I jus don like the feeling of it . ): he jus now already done the action and i ....
Speechless ..
Not everythings need to ask for repay . But afraid that other will take advantage of it . Am not trying to say he is . I jus don like the feeling of it . ): he jus now already done the action and i ....
Speechless ..
26.11.11 @ Saturday, November 26, 2011
Should i still believe in you ??
The action you giving now that is when you need , you jus used me , as you know i will be there . But when you don need me , you will disappeared . This is what true friend is luhh ?? Are you trying to say this . Fine lor . What i can say that , what i found out about you , i jus don wan to expose you . and i wont too .
Yeterday , i was so upset , really need somebody to talk to me . I had sms you to call me as it is very late at night , and you jus say you had slept early that day . Should i believe ur words ?? I know , it maybe my bad to doubt you ...
Can somebody call me and explain their action ? ): their action made me upset .... ):
25.11.11 @ Friday, November 25, 2011
Am i extra ?? Am foolish ...
Hmmm . Am upset today ... ): i have nobody to go to when i am upset . I felt i been fool , or somethings . And i felt am so extra among my friends...... when they are aloneyy , they called me , i tried to listen , i tried to accompany them . i don get back what i wan ...... I need somebody to talk to ..... i cant stand to keep it all to myself . It is miserable ............. im doubting very ones words .... thinking through everyone words ...........
10.11.11 @ Thursday, November 10, 2011
Everythings happened fot its purpose . So , what urs ?
Asking so hardly to go out until 10 plus and you say you don wan to go out ? What is this ?? Dua me ?? Jus simply said a sorry ? Wow . Okayyy . That so great , yeaa .. okayyyy , i knowww . Okayyy , can . Sua la , you like that , i aso lan lan , what can i do . You aso said what , i am no.better , no rights to say you . So next time don tell me anything , don ask me out . Seriously , am so disappointed in you . ><''
So jus now , do you mean that liar and liar don suit to be friend ?? So should i say okay , i got it , i understand . Okay , CANNNN !!!!! Okayyy uhhh , suaaa !
9.11.11 @ Wednesday, November 09, 2011
人是会变的,变好环都在于你交什么朋友。在朋友内都会体谅对方。
Then how about my friendship is going ?? He had change alot .. thay why when i have problem , i have doubt am afraid to tell him , talk to him . I don like now the him .. it is totally unlike him ..
whatever is it , i will still put on my smile . Weather is it fake or really , there is nobody can differentshape .. hmmm hahaahahaa . (: <3
1.11.11 @ Tuesday, November 01, 2011
In life we may face lot of different difficulties . Life are full with obstacle . Faces it , go through it . Fight the right , need for us . ((:
When the time , we have no sickness , we don know how to precious our life that are living well , whatever you wan to eat , what you wan to do ,is all within ur decision . Now ? The sickness made you learn ur mistake , so sickness made the decision for you . Hahahahaa . What for you are afraid now , when you don listen to others when they tell you off ?? You are right , this shouldnt happen in us , should be in the movie . But you wont know , unpredictable .
Having this sickness , i will still stay strong as long i can . Weakness of me will never shows you unless the day i had collapse . sorry to those are close to me . I never planned to tell you guy , i plan that if the sickness got worst then tell you guy . But you guy find out . You cant do anythings for me and only there to worry for me . I don wan to be like that . I know the above words hurt . But whatever problems i had i will settle my own , i will carry it myself . No worried for me , kay . Am pretty fine . (:
Crab , i know you are mad about me , not tell you , am sorry , kay ? Things , i wants to keep to myself .... you may had ditch me for a moment . I didnt say anythings . As i ditch you before . Hmmmm.... lot of things , you wont know , each day how i suffer , how i live . Do you seen to care ?? Hahhahh . Should i live over it ? Pretend i don know , never heard that coming from ur mouth . Or , all you care are your brunch of good friends that brings you clubbing , pubbing ... etc ... and the quietness of me had cover in ur life., cant be seen . You had change . Serious , jus that you never realise . If you deline it , what can i do ?? Nothing ... but i had tried to change.you back , but to no avail . I treated you as my closest ones , tried to change you , but i have no longer have the ability . I have use up , i am tried . No words i could said to you anymore . I had totally disappointed in you . When this day come , you wanted to abandon , i will no longer wants it back . I am tried of it . Sick of it . Sorry that i said those hurting words but all it truely how i felt . Each day you with them , i change my thinking , my everything , slowly both of us are stranger . Sinercely , crabby , im sorry .
I don wan you to abandon me but it not the way i wants . The way you do , i had no eyes to see . Plus , sorry for my bad , my worst . Im not a good sister . im selfish .
Lot of question i want to ask you before , not a chance given . Who.do you think of when you are bore , you have problems , when you have happiness to share . I know the answer already . Por-ing only , saying that is me . Hahaha . I don like , where is ur true words ?? Gone to no where ?? Haiiii . It all my fault , alright ..
When the time , we have no sickness , we don know how to precious our life that are living well , whatever you wan to eat , what you wan to do ,is all within ur decision . Now ? The sickness made you learn ur mistake , so sickness made the decision for you . Hahahahaa . What for you are afraid now , when you don listen to others when they tell you off ?? You are right , this shouldnt happen in us , should be in the movie . But you wont know , unpredictable .
Having this sickness , i will still stay strong as long i can . Weakness of me will never shows you unless the day i had collapse . sorry to those are close to me . I never planned to tell you guy , i plan that if the sickness got worst then tell you guy . But you guy find out . You cant do anythings for me and only there to worry for me . I don wan to be like that . I know the above words hurt . But whatever problems i had i will settle my own , i will carry it myself . No worried for me , kay . Am pretty fine . (:
Crab , i know you are mad about me , not tell you , am sorry , kay ? Things , i wants to keep to myself .... you may had ditch me for a moment . I didnt say anythings . As i ditch you before . Hmmmm.... lot of things , you wont know , each day how i suffer , how i live . Do you seen to care ?? Hahhahh . Should i live over it ? Pretend i don know , never heard that coming from ur mouth . Or , all you care are your brunch of good friends that brings you clubbing , pubbing ... etc ... and the quietness of me had cover in ur life., cant be seen . You had change . Serious , jus that you never realise . If you deline it , what can i do ?? Nothing ... but i had tried to change.you back , but to no avail . I treated you as my closest ones , tried to change you , but i have no longer have the ability . I have use up , i am tried . No words i could said to you anymore . I had totally disappointed in you . When this day come , you wanted to abandon , i will no longer wants it back . I am tried of it . Sick of it . Sorry that i said those hurting words but all it truely how i felt . Each day you with them , i change my thinking , my everything , slowly both of us are stranger . Sinercely , crabby , im sorry .
I don wan you to abandon me but it not the way i wants . The way you do , i had no eyes to see . Plus , sorry for my bad , my worst . Im not a good sister . im selfish .
Lot of question i want to ask you before , not a chance given . Who.do you think of when you are bore , you have problems , when you have happiness to share . I know the answer already . Por-ing only , saying that is me . Hahaha . I don like , where is ur true words ?? Gone to no where ?? Haiiii . It all my fault , alright ..
27.10.11 @ Thursday, October 27, 2011
Hmmm. Life ls life , still got to go on no matter what . I will not upset about you anymore . You made me really disappoint in you deeply . What can i do ? You had change greatly . Hurting so badly . Am i in the wrong to start this friendship ? It seen so .. ppl said this friendship wont last long . Seriously i have a feeling of it . Am afraid this feeling is right . I can feel that something is wrong , trying to break us up . I don know what it is . Am thinking do you really treat me as ur sister ? I don hope that i am ur sister that you said it for fun . Because of a person you don like , you wanted to abandon me ? Cant you think in the money issue ? That am working there for the seek of money . Am really wandering am i ur really friend ??
You really change too much . When i am hurt , you will ask are you okay ? But this time round you didnt . I slit myself , you will be angry , scolding me . But now , you only show , it is so fake of ur concern . If really like that , i perfer dying dhn looking at ur fake action . I promised you not to abandon you , but how about me ? Why are able to abandon me ? It is so unfair .. ): i know .. am not good for you . Treating you badly like dog .. fine . When the time i have the gut to tell you off , we shall see ,kay . Anyway , ur live is better dhn mine , so you wont be worried of anythings . I shall one day vanish in ur life , you will enjoy ur life better in that way . (;
Now i shall bless you in advanced . Hope that , in life you will be enjoying everything you are doing . Don need to be worring about anythings that related me . You will have less burnen to carry since you have so many real sister around you needed to take care . Farewell my dearest !
You really change too much . When i am hurt , you will ask are you okay ? But this time round you didnt . I slit myself , you will be angry , scolding me . But now , you only show , it is so fake of ur concern . If really like that , i perfer dying dhn looking at ur fake action . I promised you not to abandon you , but how about me ? Why are able to abandon me ? It is so unfair .. ): i know .. am not good for you . Treating you badly like dog .. fine . When the time i have the gut to tell you off , we shall see ,kay . Anyway , ur live is better dhn mine , so you wont be worried of anythings . I shall one day vanish in ur life , you will enjoy ur life better in that way . (;
Now i shall bless you in advanced . Hope that , in life you will be enjoying everything you are doing . Don need to be worring about anythings that related me . You will have less burnen to carry since you have so many real sister around you needed to take care . Farewell my dearest !
23.10.11 @ Sunday, October 23, 2011
你变了。不在是我让是的你。 有点失望。你就要好的朋友又是谁?
我根本不知道该问你吗。问了又会这么样呢 ? 可是好友根本不修要滑意对方。算了吧, 让着顺次自然。 看会这么样,现吧。 此觉得,我以前让是他的时候,不是这样的 。。。 以前的他到底去了那那里了。。
变也变了,他要晚会,看来也是太迟。
这个友情就到此维持了吗?
那些话你说的是真心?
你修要色么东西我根本办不到。
你然为你的其他的港姐会对你好的话,你就去吧。就抱起我吧。 他们能给的我都不能。那你觉得我们在也不能举秀,那我们之间就没有瓜葛,到此维持。 是你的全责了。
那如果你全责抛弃了个友情,我很对不起。者几个月来没当过一个好姐姐。
我根本不知道该问你吗。问了又会这么样呢 ? 可是好友根本不修要滑意对方。算了吧, 让着顺次自然。 看会这么样,现吧。 此觉得,我以前让是他的时候,不是这样的 。。。 以前的他到底去了那那里了。。
变也变了,他要晚会,看来也是太迟。
这个友情就到此维持了吗?
那些话你说的是真心?
你修要色么东西我根本办不到。
你然为你的其他的港姐会对你好的话,你就去吧。就抱起我吧。 他们能给的我都不能。那你觉得我们在也不能举秀,那我们之间就没有瓜葛,到此维持。 是你的全责了。
那如果你全责抛弃了个友情,我很对不起。者几个月来没当过一个好姐姐。
@ Sunday, October 23, 2011
哭了,也哭了 。 眼泪也快要哭干了。 可是这个友情,在也不会回来。
为了这个小事跟我顿觉关系,那从我们当上好友的那一刻你有完完全全地信任过我吗? 我想我应该知道答案了。那我持有一些话对你说, 对不起。这几个月来我们一起经过的事,让你失望,伤心,灰心了。我正的很抱歉。希望你不会怪我而原谅我的错误。 我知道我做你的港姐很失败,希望你没有在意过。); 我做的也能做了,觉得不满足的话,我能做的都到了支线了。正抱歉没能力满足您。
为了这个小事跟我顿觉关系,那从我们当上好友的那一刻你有完完全全地信任过我吗? 我想我应该知道答案了。那我持有一些话对你说, 对不起。这几个月来我们一起经过的事,让你失望,伤心,灰心了。我正的很抱歉。希望你不会怪我而原谅我的错误。 我知道我做你的港姐很失败,希望你没有在意过。); 我做的也能做了,觉得不满足的话,我能做的都到了支线了。正抱歉没能力满足您。
22.10.11 @ Saturday, October 22, 2011
Today pretty upset . I have no idea why .. )): JUS keep sobbing and sobbing ... >< i don understand !! Treating ppl good is it a wrong ? there is nobody i would trust . The people i trust left me one by one . I felt very lonely each time . I don know what to do . Maybe am not good enough for them . Being their friend and sister , they maybe thinks that i will fail them alot . Things may cause by me . Not everythings , but some . What have i not done enough ?? in what way ?? I tried to maintain the friendship within us . Well , you may had think , i done badly as a friend and sister to you . Then i shall say , sorry for months for xia suay you . Do i need to be specific ? okay , i have made you difficult for 6 months 3 weeks . What could i say ? I AM TERRIBLY SORRY !!! those day , i had made you so upset about it . Time already fly , you had forget me as friend and sister jus within a day . I could say that what a good achievement you had today . Today is your best ever , i could say . How about me ?? .... Could my life still going on ?? Continue on by slitting myself each nights ?? slitting the day i die , bure in the coffin ?? MAY !! Whose knows right !! HAHAHAHA . Yea , anyway ppl hated me for so long , why not jus slitting slowly .... Hahaha . I had said so much here , i think you will say that wow , you sound so fake , you can be a actress instead . The moment you said that , my mind sank to the bottom ! )):
I think am already alright . i shall forget all the past we had . Am i right ?
I think am already alright . i shall forget all the past we had . Am i right ?
20.10.11 @ Thursday, October 20, 2011
hiie . am back to posting . (:
last night am so down .
finding somebody to talk to but to no avail .
think those things myself . am so upset that i cry alone myself to sleep .
today , i came home very early , i cry to sleeo too . talkings with my sister , i was like while crying while talking to him . he don know anything .
heart really break alot . had already broken into millon pieces .
my heartaching painfully . who knows . i aso don wish anyones to knows . i have no idea , why i am crying while texting . i cant sleep all night . i cry myself to sleepp . Really pathetic me ..
last night am so down .
finding somebody to talk to but to no avail .
think those things myself . am so upset that i cry alone myself to sleep .
today , i came home very early , i cry to sleeo too . talkings with my sister , i was like while crying while talking to him . he don know anything .
heart really break alot . had already broken into millon pieces .
my heartaching painfully . who knows . i aso don wish anyones to knows . i have no idea , why i am crying while texting . i cant sleep all night . i cry myself to sleepp . Really pathetic me ..
11.10.11 @ Tuesday, October 11, 2011
hello ..
so upset today . meeting crabby at 7.45 but something went bad . ):
everythings is a misunderstanding ! ):
tution principal said i will be having tution until 9.30
so i told crabby that i will be dismiss at 9.30
he is so nice that , he waited for me for long hours .
but maths teacher dismiss me early , i went out of the tution centre to look for him .
tot he haven reach and he will be late . so i went sit beside the sliming down drink stall waiting for him . but to avail . so i went to aunty there to help up and touch up my drawing .
dhn i was like a crazy mad women , running there and here , because of my parent .
when i reached home , parent talked to me nicely , that you were sitting at the side of the parking lot . im seriously , i didnt notice you . if parent didnt talk to me about it , i wont know this matter . Crabby , please ! in the future don ever sit there ! there is very oh-lu the place cant see you de . plus there is very dangerous for you too ! if the driver lost out of control , ur life may gone ! PLEASE PLEASE ! Take care of urself properly !
CRABBY , IM REALLY SORRY THAT YOU HAD WASTED UR HOURS OF TIME WAITING FOR ME ! IM REALYY SORRY , SORRY .. ));
i know , my one word of sorry don cure ur hatre , but only i can say is SORRY . but bottom of my heart , what i saying now is all true , i didnt lie to you . and most important is i did DUA you . i really didnt see you sitting there .
i hope that you really can forgive you .
i will never forget the words to told me in the phone .
'let not be friend ! ' the moment i heard this , i collape in almost every where .
aunty asking me , what happen , to no avail , i speak out , and the moment i speak , i , myself had broken down . i cry . words are really hurting . words are like mashing me up . )); althought you may be had forgive me , somehow , i have a feeling that you didnt . and im totally feeling guilty too . )); those are jus in my mind recurring and recurring non stop . ));
whenever i break down , i never wants anyone to see or even know i cried . i will just tell the person off , i didnt . im pretty fine ! but truely in my heart it is not fine at all , who can see that ??
guessing there is nobody can see or even know .
so upset today . meeting crabby at 7.45 but something went bad . ):
everythings is a misunderstanding ! ):
tution principal said i will be having tution until 9.30
so i told crabby that i will be dismiss at 9.30
he is so nice that , he waited for me for long hours .
but maths teacher dismiss me early , i went out of the tution centre to look for him .
tot he haven reach and he will be late . so i went sit beside the sliming down drink stall waiting for him . but to avail . so i went to aunty there to help up and touch up my drawing .
dhn i was like a crazy mad women , running there and here , because of my parent .
when i reached home , parent talked to me nicely , that you were sitting at the side of the parking lot . im seriously , i didnt notice you . if parent didnt talk to me about it , i wont know this matter . Crabby , please ! in the future don ever sit there ! there is very oh-lu the place cant see you de . plus there is very dangerous for you too ! if the driver lost out of control , ur life may gone ! PLEASE PLEASE ! Take care of urself properly !
CRABBY , IM REALLY SORRY THAT YOU HAD WASTED UR HOURS OF TIME WAITING FOR ME ! IM REALYY SORRY , SORRY .. ));
i know , my one word of sorry don cure ur hatre , but only i can say is SORRY . but bottom of my heart , what i saying now is all true , i didnt lie to you . and most important is i did DUA you . i really didnt see you sitting there .
i hope that you really can forgive you .
i will never forget the words to told me in the phone .
'let not be friend ! ' the moment i heard this , i collape in almost every where .
aunty asking me , what happen , to no avail , i speak out , and the moment i speak , i , myself had broken down . i cry . words are really hurting . words are like mashing me up . )); althought you may be had forgive me , somehow , i have a feeling that you didnt . and im totally feeling guilty too . )); those are jus in my mind recurring and recurring non stop . ));
whenever i break down , i never wants anyone to see or even know i cried . i will just tell the person off , i didnt . im pretty fine ! but truely in my heart it is not fine at all , who can see that ??
guessing there is nobody can see or even know .
Labels: sobbing over ur words now ..
8.10.11 @ Saturday, October 08, 2011
hello . time long past and now i back to posting (:
at around 1 pm , i went to bath .
suddenly thought of my parent as recently i watch a show called four charpter .
this show is telling the parent , how to educate their kids about sexual .
-the methods of telling them
- how should they do
all this things flash through my mind . my parent need to watch this show .
their method of teaching me is seriously in the wrong , but of cause they are not trying to educate me about sexual .
sometime see parent shouting at their own kids , i will jus pissed off . cant they jus let their child experience what they do . althought parent through this but not child !
you guy cant do anything , you guy can only guide and say us that all .
if you keep on forcing your child , there is no happiness to the child . you can say easily that you will give the same happiness that what their friend gave . but the only thing i can tell you off that , the happiness they gave and the happiness you parent giving is totally different !
different happiness can never find through the same person , same timing .
why this facts is so hard to be in parent mind set . don they think so that their mind set is freaking old and rustly ? ARGH !
at around 1 pm , i went to bath .
suddenly thought of my parent as recently i watch a show called four charpter .
this show is telling the parent , how to educate their kids about sexual .
-the methods of telling them
- how should they do
all this things flash through my mind . my parent need to watch this show .
their method of teaching me is seriously in the wrong , but of cause they are not trying to educate me about sexual .
sometime see parent shouting at their own kids , i will jus pissed off . cant they jus let their child experience what they do . althought parent through this but not child !
you guy cant do anything , you guy can only guide and say us that all .
if you keep on forcing your child , there is no happiness to the child . you can say easily that you will give the same happiness that what their friend gave . but the only thing i can tell you off that , the happiness they gave and the happiness you parent giving is totally different !
different happiness can never find through the same person , same timing .
why this facts is so hard to be in parent mind set . don they think so that their mind set is freaking old and rustly ? ARGH !
8.6.11 @ Wednesday, June 08, 2011
hello !! :D
things went pretty well recently . (:
i went to find aunty after my tution . help her close shop too . :D
i had kfc for dinner . so yummy :DD
im happy today ! :D
but i still have things in my mind , i got say to it out .
crabby , what you heard mum said , don take too hardly in heart kay !
she jus vently anger on me . she don meant what she say .
anyway , she cant control me , that friends i wanna mix with right ?
we aso not born to be her dog or born to please her .
see la , she say don be so close with you , now what ? we are close like magnets . (:
hahaha . no worried la . we are still friend no matter what :D <3
things went pretty well recently . (:
i went to find aunty after my tution . help her close shop too . :D
i had kfc for dinner . so yummy :DD
im happy today ! :D
but i still have things in my mind , i got say to it out .
crabby , what you heard mum said , don take too hardly in heart kay !
she jus vently anger on me . she don meant what she say .
anyway , she cant control me , that friends i wanna mix with right ?
we aso not born to be her dog or born to please her .
see la , she say don be so close with you , now what ? we are close like magnets . (:
hahaha . no worried la . we are still friend no matter what :D <3
NIGHTS , LOVE YOU
6.6.11 @ Monday, June 06, 2011
hi guy !
there always something i wonder recently .
no one really can really say to . :/
someone told me , i had been used by this guy .
should i believe what that person say ? )):
i really clueless , you know .
there is really alot of thing happening around me .
i don know what to or react .
i jus found out . parent told a lie to me too .
they are no better too .
they said the mp3 is other people loss it de .
but actually they bought it de ! very angry sia .
bought that dam thing say la . i will do / say anything meh ? :@
ur buy that thing , i aso diam diam .
whatever she wan , you jiu buy for her straight la .
i wan somethings needa wait a million year la ? sibo ?
really wonder , am i ur daughter ? ):
i always no double with my friends .
but this time , i double .
as my friend of mine told me off , he / she is using me .
WHY ??)); SOB . been good to someone , always take advantage .
why you are no different with my other friends that i don trust , i don like , i don talk to , i am not buey gam with ! WHY !
you always say we are the closest friend ever, if there no friend like me , i really no one goes to . i wan to ask , "DO YOU REALLY MEAN WHAT YOU SAY ? " if you don mean , next time don ever say it la hor . you jus will hurt ppl feeling and make ppl angry nia lor .
my this school really that hard to find a true friend able to talk , go out ... etc !
seriously , i hate this fxcking lousy school ! >< why am i always upset over friendship ? :/
I WAN TO VANISH IN THIS WORLD AND NO ONE WOULD EVER FIND ME AGAIN !
THERE ASO NO ONE WAN TO FIND TOO .
CUZ I DON FIT TO BE ANYONE FRIEND .
MY EYE REALLY PAJIAO IN CHOOSING FRIENDS .
there always something i wonder recently .
no one really can really say to . :/
someone told me , i had been used by this guy .
should i believe what that person say ? )):
i really clueless , you know .
there is really alot of thing happening around me .
i don know what to or react .
i jus found out . parent told a lie to me too .
they are no better too .
they said the mp3 is other people loss it de .
but actually they bought it de ! very angry sia .
bought that dam thing say la . i will do / say anything meh ? :@
ur buy that thing , i aso diam diam .
whatever she wan , you jiu buy for her straight la .
i wan somethings needa wait a million year la ? sibo ?
really wonder , am i ur daughter ? ):
i always no double with my friends .
but this time , i double .
as my friend of mine told me off , he / she is using me .
WHY ??)); SOB . been good to someone , always take advantage .
why you are no different with my other friends that i don trust , i don like , i don talk to , i am not buey gam with ! WHY !
you always say we are the closest friend ever, if there no friend like me , i really no one goes to . i wan to ask , "DO YOU REALLY MEAN WHAT YOU SAY ? " if you don mean , next time don ever say it la hor . you jus will hurt ppl feeling and make ppl angry nia lor .
my this school really that hard to find a true friend able to talk , go out ... etc !
seriously , i hate this fxcking lousy school ! >< why am i always upset over friendship ? :/
I WAN TO VANISH IN THIS WORLD AND NO ONE WOULD EVER FIND ME AGAIN !
THERE ASO NO ONE WAN TO FIND TOO .
CUZ I DON FIT TO BE ANYONE FRIEND .
MY EYE REALLY PAJIAO IN CHOOSING FRIENDS .
3.6.11 @ Friday, June 03, 2011
hello ! :D
yeterday , so upset , but im fine today ! :D
yeterday so upset that i went to ate 40 pills with 4 different medi .
hahaah . seriously i am seeking to die .
seriously , i recevie call from , crabby , i immediatly think , am i dead ?
but to no avail , i stay alive :/ God really bless me .
eating those pills make me really want puke sia . plus my tummy quite upset too . eat too much pills plus , my dinner is pills , believe it ? OMG ! HAHA .
but im fine . ((: yeterday is quite scary as i ate without tell anyone .
once wake i told tingli and bell bell . after that dhn is crabby .
tingli jus say me nia .
dhn bell bell is my jie jie ma , so she scold me and lecture la . but at that moment never tend to listen to her .
after that crabby , so call as treaten la . but can hear that crab abit dulan . but i think i got promise crab not to it again ba . i that time aso seh seh don really remember what i said .
last night heart really aching badly , that feeling is horrible , terrible . that feeling is mixed . jus like 4 disarter come all together .
so i went to ate pill . when even im upset i have no one to go to . and don know what the method to make the pain away from my heart . i had control myself not to take but to no avail . this is the third time i think . i had even hurt myself last night by using penknife to cut my leg . using the penknife , cutting the neo-print , i accidentally hurt my index finger . but it okay .
but now , im totally okay and fine ! :D no worried :D
yeterday , so upset , but im fine today ! :D
yeterday so upset that i went to ate 40 pills with 4 different medi .
hahaah . seriously i am seeking to die .
seriously , i recevie call from , crabby , i immediatly think , am i dead ?
but to no avail , i stay alive :/ God really bless me .
eating those pills make me really want puke sia . plus my tummy quite upset too . eat too much pills plus , my dinner is pills , believe it ? OMG ! HAHA .
but im fine . ((: yeterday is quite scary as i ate without tell anyone .
once wake i told tingli and bell bell . after that dhn is crabby .
tingli jus say me nia .
dhn bell bell is my jie jie ma , so she scold me and lecture la . but at that moment never tend to listen to her .
after that crabby , so call as treaten la . but can hear that crab abit dulan . but i think i got promise crab not to it again ba . i that time aso seh seh don really remember what i said .
last night heart really aching badly , that feeling is horrible , terrible . that feeling is mixed . jus like 4 disarter come all together .
so i went to ate pill . when even im upset i have no one to go to . and don know what the method to make the pain away from my heart . i had control myself not to take but to no avail . this is the third time i think . i had even hurt myself last night by using penknife to cut my leg . using the penknife , cutting the neo-print , i accidentally hurt my index finger . but it okay .
but now , im totally okay and fine ! :D no worried :D
Labels: how am i going to die ?
2.6.11 @ Thursday, June 02, 2011
hey . ):
passing my holiday without know what date is today . am still through the date is 20 plus ! laugh . first june totally not my day sia . :/
when to tution , my parent came to find my tution , for no fxcking reason .
find them , so ? ur can help ? NO RIGHT ? as well fxck off due to this matter . :/
this matter made me fxcking unhappily . i jus don wan to say anything . what else ur wan ?
wan to go out for awhile return my friends things nia aso want to care ?? don ur think is fxcking over board ?? :x i really cant stand . cant stand till i wan to leave this house and stay with my aunty sia . == what are trying to do ?
i give up on every single things la . everythings let ur decide , let ur control , happy bo ??
it seen like i am born to be ur listening dog ! -.- why am i in this family ? in the past is in the past ler . now what centery already ?? 21 ler !! still past !! ==-'- pls la . can ur don put urself in my own shoe anot . i am different when ur are young ! when ur young , ur might be guai kia , pls la , IM NOT !!!! i don know how to explain to ur la & i really pissed off seriously .
went to cp at night , throw the things to him and leave . i really very pek cek . but really sorry to both of you- crabby & aloy ,kay ? i really don wan to talk . i may jus throw my fxcking temple at ur . that why la . :/ hope ur understand . i jus realise that when i really very unhappy i will jus blast my fxcking music . :D and sorry to aunty serence too , and crabby as i never ans ur phone call . i jus don wan to talk . that all . never see , when crab talk to me hesitated and clam myself . :/
passing my holiday without know what date is today . am still through the date is 20 plus ! laugh . first june totally not my day sia . :/
when to tution , my parent came to find my tution , for no fxcking reason .
find them , so ? ur can help ? NO RIGHT ? as well fxck off due to this matter . :/
this matter made me fxcking unhappily . i jus don wan to say anything . what else ur wan ?
wan to go out for awhile return my friends things nia aso want to care ?? don ur think is fxcking over board ?? :x i really cant stand . cant stand till i wan to leave this house and stay with my aunty sia . == what are trying to do ?
i give up on every single things la . everythings let ur decide , let ur control , happy bo ??
it seen like i am born to be ur listening dog ! -.- why am i in this family ? in the past is in the past ler . now what centery already ?? 21 ler !! still past !! ==-'- pls la . can ur don put urself in my own shoe anot . i am different when ur are young ! when ur young , ur might be guai kia , pls la , IM NOT !!!! i don know how to explain to ur la & i really pissed off seriously .
went to cp at night , throw the things to him and leave . i really very pek cek . but really sorry to both of you- crabby & aloy ,kay ? i really don wan to talk . i may jus throw my fxcking temple at ur . that why la . :/ hope ur understand . i jus realise that when i really very unhappy i will jus blast my fxcking music . :D and sorry to aunty serence too , and crabby as i never ans ur phone call . i jus don wan to talk . that all . never see , when crab talk to me hesitated and clam myself . :/
Labels: hell getting nearer to me ):x
1.6.11 @ Wednesday, June 01, 2011
hey ~ (:
went to nex with ting li .
watched movie , Breastly .
the show is pretty nice .
talking about relationship .
in real relationship , each parties should love who they are .
the inner of the partter . no matter how his /her inner or external is ugly ,
love him his good point , who that parties is . not loving him for being rich , looks , faces , ...etc
in the show , he is very handsome , being proud , being hong ... many bad character like play boy . when he got curse , he is ugly like a breast , that wherever he walk people will have the look on him . he character start to change humble . he got to find that girl he like , to bond feeling with her and make her say "i love u ". not by force but what she feel truely within a short timing given . if not he will stay forever ugly . after they stay under the same roof , that girl somehow like him during his ugly days . in the end , that guy looks had given back and they were together .
i told this show to you very badly but i wan to say that , you should love a person innernal and not external . external , cant determine anythings to this relationship . have a gf/bf with look , with money , having the face , got what you want , so ? but do you feel happy being with that partter ? importantly in relationship , being together should be happy , loving each other of their true . but that no ones will love people innernal first . they alway love their external first dhn their innernal . is look so important than their real feeling ?
making urself pretty out , wanted to attract attention , attract hot guy .
but those guy , don love ur true than they really love ur fake side , that putting make up .
i know you don born out with prefect look , no one , do right ? you should put make up , you should let people , love you the way you are . don feel urself ugly as god create us , he don create ugly things . he love you who you are , so why cant you ? Now leave all the negative comment and things , to live for urself and not for others already .
went to nex with ting li .
watched movie , Breastly .
the show is pretty nice .
talking about relationship .
in real relationship , each parties should love who they are .
the inner of the partter . no matter how his /her inner or external is ugly ,
love him his good point , who that parties is . not loving him for being rich , looks , faces , ...etc
in the show , he is very handsome , being proud , being hong ... many bad character like play boy . when he got curse , he is ugly like a breast , that wherever he walk people will have the look on him . he character start to change humble . he got to find that girl he like , to bond feeling with her and make her say "i love u ". not by force but what she feel truely within a short timing given . if not he will stay forever ugly . after they stay under the same roof , that girl somehow like him during his ugly days . in the end , that guy looks had given back and they were together .
i told this show to you very badly but i wan to say that , you should love a person innernal and not external . external , cant determine anythings to this relationship . have a gf/bf with look , with money , having the face , got what you want , so ? but do you feel happy being with that partter ? importantly in relationship , being together should be happy , loving each other of their true . but that no ones will love people innernal first . they alway love their external first dhn their innernal . is look so important than their real feeling ?
making urself pretty out , wanted to attract attention , attract hot guy .
but those guy , don love ur true than they really love ur fake side , that putting make up .
i know you don born out with prefect look , no one , do right ? you should put make up , you should let people , love you the way you are . don feel urself ugly as god create us , he don create ugly things . he love you who you are , so why cant you ? Now leave all the negative comment and things , to live for urself and not for others already .
30.5.11 @ Monday, May 30, 2011
hi guy ! how urs day going ?
today lot of things happen .
i hear crabby on phone very mooby .
went to find crabby , something seen to trouble crabby alot , as crabby sound pity awful in phone . being good ,bought food for crabby .
crab seen that , had been throught alot .
had kana hurt by mostly exs and even his currently one .
crab told me "i wont get a steady relationship . "
somehow i am strongly disagree . everyone can find a steady .
as you cheris each other well , ur can last long , don you think so ?
another parties hong you , must you got to hurt back that parties ?
see arr , hurting back the parties , parties may think , you never tiongxim with him before , so that the parties will hong even big than you . if you don hong and pretend nothing happen , after a period , another parties will know , you really love ur pattern . ur pattern may did this to you , may wan to determine something about you . crabby i wan to tell you that , you did nothing wrong . you may had hong others in past but this may not be ur bao yin . it may be so concoincend .
it not ur fault . it aso not ur faith . god put you in this situation to make you learn this obstacles . and he wan you to learn how to overcome it . no matter how hard it is , in order to make you learn , don you agree ? honestly , i have my problem ,but i don really like to show ur . i understand that it may pissed ur off . that why yea . so whenever i am moody ,i tend to stay home , reflecting what i did wrong , that people treat me this way . i would find the answer but i always help myself out of this unhappiness that already . this unhappiness had hidden so well that no one could see it or even seen it . but this type of way to cheer myself up is bad as it may lei ji , and really one day im i that really bad moody i may eventually cry it out . i can bear anything but i myself may wan to avoid things that would hurt me . i always told you , don get into relationship , that the point and the reason . getting in to relationship isnt bad jus that , you must know how to play . it is jus like a game like chinese chess to me . beinging of the game , each other will be thinking , how to start and how long can it last . but begin single is alway the best , why is it so ? aso like play chinese chess , there no one with you , there alway no problem like , each other wont get hurt . 'being a relationship is like other parties begin to hurt you ' <- it can be a good way and even can be in a bad way . but whatever i say here you can don listen but when you really experience it , the pain and the memories is with you , and you may start to avoid it .
the feeling isnt good , i know . it hurting inside , when you start to hurt urself outside , the wound's pain leave away jus a second .but innerally the pain stay for hour , for day , for weeks , or even months . i don stop you for getting in relationship . but you got to get in mind that , its may takes year to recover but it take a seconds to take up the pain . is it so worth to get in ? whenever you suffer , other parties aso don even know . what for playing so hardly ?
beging together isnt should be happy , never wants to get eacher hurt , always wanted to protect each other safey , what ever each others wants they would try to get it . and never fail each other . when a parties is upset , the another parties will always there and encourge and thinking of how to cheer this parties up . if this world have this type of relationship theres alway no trouble , no double , there forever no problem . and will be a happily ever after already . )):
today lot of things happen .
i hear crabby on phone very mooby .
went to find crabby , something seen to trouble crabby alot , as crabby sound pity awful in phone . being good ,bought food for crabby .
crab seen that , had been throught alot .
had kana hurt by mostly exs and even his currently one .
crab told me "i wont get a steady relationship . "
somehow i am strongly disagree . everyone can find a steady .
as you cheris each other well , ur can last long , don you think so ?
another parties hong you , must you got to hurt back that parties ?
see arr , hurting back the parties , parties may think , you never tiongxim with him before , so that the parties will hong even big than you . if you don hong and pretend nothing happen , after a period , another parties will know , you really love ur pattern . ur pattern may did this to you , may wan to determine something about you . crabby i wan to tell you that , you did nothing wrong . you may had hong others in past but this may not be ur bao yin . it may be so concoincend .
it not ur fault . it aso not ur faith . god put you in this situation to make you learn this obstacles . and he wan you to learn how to overcome it . no matter how hard it is , in order to make you learn , don you agree ? honestly , i have my problem ,but i don really like to show ur . i understand that it may pissed ur off . that why yea . so whenever i am moody ,i tend to stay home , reflecting what i did wrong , that people treat me this way . i would find the answer but i always help myself out of this unhappiness that already . this unhappiness had hidden so well that no one could see it or even seen it . but this type of way to cheer myself up is bad as it may lei ji , and really one day im i that really bad moody i may eventually cry it out . i can bear anything but i myself may wan to avoid things that would hurt me . i always told you , don get into relationship , that the point and the reason . getting in to relationship isnt bad jus that , you must know how to play . it is jus like a game like chinese chess to me . beinging of the game , each other will be thinking , how to start and how long can it last . but begin single is alway the best , why is it so ? aso like play chinese chess , there no one with you , there alway no problem like , each other wont get hurt . 'being a relationship is like other parties begin to hurt you ' <- it can be a good way and even can be in a bad way . but whatever i say here you can don listen but when you really experience it , the pain and the memories is with you , and you may start to avoid it .
the feeling isnt good , i know . it hurting inside , when you start to hurt urself outside , the wound's pain leave away jus a second .but innerally the pain stay for hour , for day , for weeks , or even months . i don stop you for getting in relationship . but you got to get in mind that , its may takes year to recover but it take a seconds to take up the pain . is it so worth to get in ? whenever you suffer , other parties aso don even know . what for playing so hardly ?
beging together isnt should be happy , never wants to get eacher hurt , always wanted to protect each other safey , what ever each others wants they would try to get it . and never fail each other . when a parties is upset , the another parties will always there and encourge and thinking of how to cheer this parties up . if this world have this type of relationship theres alway no trouble , no double , there forever no problem . and will be a happily ever after already . )):
there is so many things to tell you .
terribly , im sorry
being the close friend of ur not able to be there will you need a listening ear .
sometime really thinking , having a good hearted , so ?
people never like , you ,will know to apreciate .
not only treat you good only , i aso treat those who really know how to care and there for a person even he/she jus a friends .
i really love friends are like that .
they do really care , take care like we are slibing.
maybe you never felt the true feeling of true friend care but it really will warm and melt ur heart seriously . ((:
but jus have a question for you , do i really suit to be a close friend ?
it seen that i don fit you know ? when you have problem , i seen , unable to help you out .
argh ! maybe i talking nonsense . haha . i maybe have pms . :/
mandy that fails you lot . ):
29.5.11 @ Sunday, May 29, 2011
how life guy ?
going well ?
suddenly my mood went pretty down .
my friend of mine told me .
i had changes in me .
i agree , this half of year i change alot .
she never tell me , i never had notice it .
is it because of my another friend , i ended up like that ?
seriously i don know what changes i had made you now .
can ur jus tell me off ?? what the hell wrong with me !
is it i change from bad to worst ? my attitude is it ?
or my action ? what is it ?? don made me double anythings can ?
or made me worried about anythings can ?
you said something going to happened to me soon or now ?
what actually ? i don get it .
every single of ur words you speak i really loss !
can you speak to me clearly ?
what really going on ?
you suddenly change to another person to me .
and you suddenly sound so serious to me .
you really scared me .
what actually happen ?
PLEASE TELL ME NOW CAN ??? OR EVEN WAIT TILL THE TIME IS RIGHT CANN ?
but don wait till the things happen then tell me off . by then its to late . i hope ur tell me off for my better . (: i surely will listen .
and btw , whenever im upset , i will come here to write it out . it made me feel better writting it out . don worried me okay , i will be fine ! :D
going well ?
suddenly my mood went pretty down .
my friend of mine told me .
i had changes in me .
i agree , this half of year i change alot .
she never tell me , i never had notice it .
is it because of my another friend , i ended up like that ?
seriously i don know what changes i had made you now .
can ur jus tell me off ?? what the hell wrong with me !
is it i change from bad to worst ? my attitude is it ?
or my action ? what is it ?? don made me double anythings can ?
or made me worried about anythings can ?
you said something going to happened to me soon or now ?
what actually ? i don get it .
every single of ur words you speak i really loss !
can you speak to me clearly ?
what really going on ?
you suddenly change to another person to me .
and you suddenly sound so serious to me .
you really scared me .
what actually happen ?
PLEASE TELL ME NOW CAN ??? OR EVEN WAIT TILL THE TIME IS RIGHT CANN ?
but don wait till the things happen then tell me off . by then its to late . i hope ur tell me off for my better . (: i surely will listen .
and btw , whenever im upset , i will come here to write it out . it made me feel better writting it out . don worried me okay , i will be fine ! :D
22.5.11 @ Sunday, May 22, 2011
YEA LA ! TODAY IS MY LAST DAY ON EARTH LA ! cork sia !
tomorrow , got maths trail , go school , seriously for fxck ?? go there simply waste my fxcking time there nor ! i as well go home sleep as long as i like nor ! CCB ! wan me go school jiu go meh ? aso not ur dog sia . wan go school ur go la , anyway this school is ur choose . NOT ME CHOOSE DE ! TABLE - CLOTH , PREGNANT DRESS ! , LAO SAI SHAN ! .... ETC ! jus bath cold water . now chill alot already . i had forget what had happened jus now . but one things is , why mother say , must be careful of what kind of friends i choose ? is she trying to say currently i close with is bad ? but i don think they are that bad , you know . they treat me quiet good lor . seriously i don know , what they are thinking , talkng about sia . sometime they talk no link one nor ! >:
tomorrow , got maths trail , go school , seriously for fxck ?? go there simply waste my fxcking time there nor ! i as well go home sleep as long as i like nor ! CCB ! wan me go school jiu go meh ? aso not ur dog sia . wan go school ur go la , anyway this school is ur choose . NOT ME CHOOSE DE ! TABLE - CLOTH , PREGNANT DRESS ! , LAO SAI SHAN ! .... ETC ! jus bath cold water . now chill alot already . i had forget what had happened jus now . but one things is , why mother say , must be careful of what kind of friends i choose ? is she trying to say currently i close with is bad ? but i don think they are that bad , you know . they treat me quiet good lor . seriously i don know , what they are thinking , talkng about sia . sometime they talk no link one nor ! >:
@ Sunday, May 22, 2011
Hello people ! :D
so fxcking slow sia , i am waiting for my photo to upload to facebook . :/
there is so many of my zilian photo sia , not knowing ehh . HAHAHA . im zilian queen , joke . :p
hmmm . so tired yet need to wait the photo upload . >< sleepy sia . today went to work .
my backbone gota crack into two man ! my back is still hurt :(( my legs too ! aching badly too . :/
no point of messaging my back . :/ fxcking pissed off due to my hurting , aching back .
not only this , im aso pissed off with my friend la . give me this type of fxcking attitude . maybe that person never notice . at least what you speak , speak louder la . wan ka my jiaowei say la . wuji ka infront of me , i will for sure infront of you clap , not only clap plus i will clap louder dhn anyone else nor . == cb sia . haiii , fasting cant angry ! :/ got to fast happily ((: jus read finshed matthew 1:2 . don really understand what it talk about . but i at least understand what matthew 1:1 saying about . im so hungry for the whole day ! althought i took my dinner . but my dinner had a chicken floss bun plus a green apple milk tea only . pathetic hor . as i bo money ma . sian nor , no money really no life nor . pek cek ler , now really know , what is crack my head and think where got money sia . :/ -Money Money , where are you ? )): - so fxcking urge to have you sia . cant you jus pop out infront of me now ?? :/ i wan to BUY THINGS !! ))): i wan this , i wan that la . so many things needed to buy )): window shop without buying any things is a miserabler to me )): - HEARTACHE LA - ARGH !!- HEARTACHE LA - now hungry still im font )):<>shall i fast full day that means fasting for a month without foods . 0.o don know i can make it anot . but no money sia , how to eat . maybe , shall start to fast full day lor . try slow la to fast full day la . hard to adapt sia , suddenly fast full . :/ jiayou jiayou ! tomorrow try to fast full day without food . :DD hope he will give me strenght and energy to pull throught a month . :D <3 in another way still can save money . ((: today during working hours , i accident cut my hand by the container sia . it bleed somemore nor . it is painful )): but not a choice given , this is my job ! next time i will be more becareful , dhn theres wont be any problem (:
sleepy me x.x wanted to sleep soon . :/ NIGHTS GUYS :D love u YEA ! :D
so fxcking slow sia , i am waiting for my photo to upload to facebook . :/
there is so many of my zilian photo sia , not knowing ehh . HAHAHA . im zilian queen , joke . :p
hmmm . so tired yet need to wait the photo upload . >< sleepy sia . today went to work .
my backbone gota crack into two man ! my back is still hurt :(( my legs too ! aching badly too . :/
no point of messaging my back . :/ fxcking pissed off due to my hurting , aching back .
not only this , im aso pissed off with my friend la . give me this type of fxcking attitude . maybe that person never notice . at least what you speak , speak louder la . wan ka my jiaowei say la . wuji ka infront of me , i will for sure infront of you clap , not only clap plus i will clap louder dhn anyone else nor . == cb sia . haiii , fasting cant angry ! :/ got to fast happily ((: jus read finshed matthew 1:2 . don really understand what it talk about . but i at least understand what matthew 1:1 saying about . im so hungry for the whole day ! althought i took my dinner . but my dinner had a chicken floss bun plus a green apple milk tea only . pathetic hor . as i bo money ma . sian nor , no money really no life nor . pek cek ler , now really know , what is crack my head and think where got money sia . :/ -Money Money , where are you ? )): - so fxcking urge to have you sia . cant you jus pop out infront of me now ?? :/ i wan to BUY THINGS !! ))): i wan this , i wan that la . so many things needed to buy )): window shop without buying any things is a miserabler to me )): - HEARTACHE LA - ARGH !!- HEARTACHE LA - now hungry still im font )):<>shall i fast full day that means fasting for a month without foods . 0.o don know i can make it anot . but no money sia , how to eat . maybe , shall start to fast full day lor . try slow la to fast full day la . hard to adapt sia , suddenly fast full . :/ jiayou jiayou ! tomorrow try to fast full day without food . :DD hope he will give me strenght and energy to pull throught a month . :D <3 in another way still can save money . ((: today during working hours , i accident cut my hand by the container sia . it bleed somemore nor . it is painful )): but not a choice given , this is my job ! next time i will be more becareful , dhn theres wont be any problem (:
sleepy me x.x wanted to sleep soon . :/ NIGHTS GUYS :D love u YEA ! :D
15.1.11 @ Saturday, January 15, 2011
hi people, how your life ?
school already open D:
lot of homework as i never do holiday assignment.
first day of every lesson it assignments was so hard,
but now i get use to it.
the most work needed to do is my art work.
talking about my N-level needed to do 5 paper works and 1 final man! that is alot ):
hahaha. i think i can do it ba :D
but O-level it the worst ba, needed to do 8 paper works and 1 final == even more than N-level.
i not sure i can do it ma, all my art piece depend on my mood. :/ hope that evey lesson of my art my mood can be good :D just finshed my art homework (:
MISS YOU :D <3
school already open D:
lot of homework as i never do holiday assignment.
first day of every lesson it assignments was so hard,
but now i get use to it.
the most work needed to do is my art work.
talking about my N-level needed to do 5 paper works and 1 final man! that is alot ):
hahaha. i think i can do it ba :D
but O-level it the worst ba, needed to do 8 paper works and 1 final == even more than N-level.
i not sure i can do it ma, all my art piece depend on my mood. :/ hope that evey lesson of my art my mood can be good :D just finshed my art homework (:
MISS YOU :D <3
10.12.10 @ Friday, December 10, 2010
Do we need to think about life and love?
is that so important ?
is there really got shi shen shao nu?
if there really have, i wan to be her stone.
why is love is complicated?
love really hurt people feel man.
leting people to be insane about it.
if not in love , but like that person, cant be express out that feel i really understand man, the feel is really miserable .
should love ne likw that ?
love may hurting and happiness..
is that so important ?
is there really got shi shen shao nu?
if there really have, i wan to be her stone.
why is love is complicated?
love really hurt people feel man.
leting people to be insane about it.
if not in love , but like that person, cant be express out that feel i really understand man, the feel is really miserable .
should love ne likw that ?
love may hurting and happiness..
6.9.10 @ Monday, September 06, 2010
hey ppl am bck! :D
recently slackin' almost all the time. althought exam is coming yea.
and i really pray tat i will pass my EOY exam!!! :D craving for that hungry!!:'(
that will put aside k ?
slacking with shi ying, pear, ivan(si zhu :D) 2morrow!!dam looking forward. i miss shi ying...the height :x haha. fxck la holiday should be relaxing lor give us so many hw and project.sickening.-.-
when my "door" is really close my do i still feeling something. for some of you may feel good but for me is so sucky.. In my heart should buy 100 lock to my heart door!!! :D
the sentence for 2day.
God moves when you are in faithful!
said by my cg leader!!
that real very true! i feel it for myself!!that feeling is really very cool! :D kay.
recently slackin' almost all the time. althought exam is coming yea.
and i really pray tat i will pass my EOY exam!!! :D craving for that hungry!!:'(
that will put aside k ?
slacking with shi ying, pear, ivan(si zhu :D) 2morrow!!dam looking forward. i miss shi ying...the height :x haha. fxck la holiday should be relaxing lor give us so many hw and project.sickening.-.-
when my "door" is really close my do i still feeling something. for some of you may feel good but for me is so sucky.. In my heart should buy 100 lock to my heart door!!! :D
the sentence for 2day.
God moves when you are in faithful!
said by my cg leader!!
that real very true! i feel it for myself!!that feeling is really very cool! :D kay.
bye ppl! God bless you & ILY :D
13.8.10 @ Friday, August 13, 2010
how i wish i not in the world at all!!>< my whole live is damm bloody sucky!!
i not been born to let you scold!!!if you tat hate me so much!!!why do you born me out then!!!???
as well take me away..any way i aso wont know that you had taken me away!!!i don feeling the love at home..i feel more outside..that why i never like to go home early!!never ever!!unless i have no want to hang out..I HATE MY FAMILY FOREVER!!! i alway admire my frenz parent..they are so much frenzly.. how i wish i fast grow up be a older adult like 19 or 20.. by then no one stop me..hmm>< am not feel really well..i will end here..
i not been born to let you scold!!!if you tat hate me so much!!!why do you born me out then!!!???
as well take me away..any way i aso wont know that you had taken me away!!!i don feeling the love at home..i feel more outside..that why i never like to go home early!!never ever!!unless i have no want to hang out..I HATE MY FAMILY FOREVER!!! i alway admire my frenz parent..they are so much frenzly.. how i wish i fast grow up be a older adult like 19 or 20.. by then no one stop me..hmm>< am not feel really well..i will end here..
bye.ILY & God Bless You(:
20.7.10 @ Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Helo ppl!!!!!^^
Happy Birthday!!!!Lindy!!!
2day not much hw man!!!!!haha..
you know wat God change my frenz lot!!!!it sudden to me tat she change..
she jus out of the blue moon tat she wan to study hard to go to na!!..
ok la..i abit discourage her lor..it is quiet hard to study na work..she must bear wif the differcultness..dhn i don mind her go..it good for her..
this sat going out wif frenz watch movie!!!!^^ after that go for SVC^^ dam looking forward to it!!!!^^reach out to God!!!!^^
my life is the same as urs..still need to go on wif him!!!!^^
Happy Birthday!!!!Lindy!!!
2day not much hw man!!!!!haha..
you know wat God change my frenz lot!!!!it sudden to me tat she change..
she jus out of the blue moon tat she wan to study hard to go to na!!..
ok la..i abit discourage her lor..it is quiet hard to study na work..she must bear wif the differcultness..dhn i don mind her go..it good for her..
this sat going out wif frenz watch movie!!!!^^ after that go for SVC^^ dam looking forward to it!!!!^^reach out to God!!!!^^
my life is the same as urs..still need to go on wif him!!!!^^
i felt lucky 2day!!!!i should get scold from teacher but funni that teacher notice but didnt scold..((:
no words..
Byee ppl~ILY & God Bless you!!!!^^
10.7.10 @ Saturday, July 10, 2010
helo people!!^^
im fine..still the same(: just tat my life have change as i accept god in my life!!((:
parent are still the same..cant trust me..etc..
school is fine!! just have some freaking of them im not happy wif them!!dam freaking guai lan..dam him!!!he dam hum lor!!!not guy!!!he gay man!!!omg!!!my class have liang-liang ciang..
now my school works is coping will..managing my school work and time is well..but not attending cca..i started to have no interest in cca..
you guy know wat!!!!i find a book is about Jesus!!!!i wanna buy to read!!the book reallyvery interesting!!!saving money to buy that book!!!book!!!must wait for meee!!!!!
last saturday i go to expo again!!!^^ but i didnt stay there very long..just for awhile!!because my parent..but also im out since morning..so yeah..but that time i went back i really very very happy to see or feel the God and see my cheerful church member!!!!^^that time i feel really very peaceful as im at home im miserble and feeling uneasy aso..but when i go there..i pray, in my heart feel peaceful and aso don have the feeling of scare..((:i aso hope that day by day pass, i will believe in him even more!!!and together we overcome the obstacle^^
and nowaday i aso working hard for my streaming this year..when i go to sec 3 i hope i can take A' maths^^ but i wish that i would go to ITE..aiya..by then..then see which path i take..
recently i aso hanging out wif shi ying, pear and melissa.. hope to hang out wif them more!!wish that shi ying wont be so miserble about the past hope that she will be cheer as before!!!((: althought we lost in relationship..anway those guy don desever us to sad for them de!!!so we must be as happy as before!!!! and find our past happiness that we alway use to be!!!^^hanging out together..cracking joke..laugh like siao one..alway laugh until stomach pain!!!(:if i really go to ITE i hope i can go to the same ITE as shi ying =3 hehe.. i now very lazy do my school works!!still have alot of hw to do!!!!Argh!!!my teacher must give so many hw and test here and there...
i will sto heree~ don know wat to write..
im fine..still the same(: just tat my life have change as i accept god in my life!!((:
parent are still the same..cant trust me..etc..
school is fine!! just have some freaking of them im not happy wif them!!dam freaking guai lan..dam him!!!he dam hum lor!!!not guy!!!he gay man!!!omg!!!my class have liang-liang ciang..
now my school works is coping will..managing my school work and time is well..but not attending cca..i started to have no interest in cca..
you guy know wat!!!!i find a book is about Jesus!!!!i wanna buy to read!!the book reallyvery interesting!!!saving money to buy that book!!!book!!!must wait for meee!!!!!
last saturday i go to expo again!!!^^ but i didnt stay there very long..just for awhile!!because my parent..but also im out since morning..so yeah..but that time i went back i really very very happy to see or feel the God and see my cheerful church member!!!!^^that time i feel really very peaceful as im at home im miserble and feeling uneasy aso..but when i go there..i pray, in my heart feel peaceful and aso don have the feeling of scare..((:i aso hope that day by day pass, i will believe in him even more!!!and together we overcome the obstacle^^
and nowaday i aso working hard for my streaming this year..when i go to sec 3 i hope i can take A' maths^^ but i wish that i would go to ITE..aiya..by then..then see which path i take..
recently i aso hanging out wif shi ying, pear and melissa.. hope to hang out wif them more!!wish that shi ying wont be so miserble about the past hope that she will be cheer as before!!!((: althought we lost in relationship..anway those guy don desever us to sad for them de!!!so we must be as happy as before!!!! and find our past happiness that we alway use to be!!!^^hanging out together..cracking joke..laugh like siao one..alway laugh until stomach pain!!!(:if i really go to ITE i hope i can go to the same ITE as shi ying =3 hehe.. i now very lazy do my school works!!still have alot of hw to do!!!!Argh!!!my teacher must give so many hw and test here and there...
i will sto heree~ don know wat to write..
byee ppl~ ILY & God Bless You!!
23.6.10 @ Wednesday, June 23, 2010
hii~
feeling horrible now..i don't know how to explain my abstacle!!!
jus sobbing..T.T i jus wan to leave tis family..i hate tis family..
they jus don't belong to me.. i don't mind growing up without them..
i don need their love or care!!!! they don fit me!!!!i hate them!!!!!
YA!!!i make the first step so wat!!!!!is my step aso not urs..
i don need ur care!!!ur care don mean anything to me!!!!
your being a parent to me is selfish, no happiness, no care, no fun, don understand me and wat i think, onli know how to gang up to scold me(wat kind of parent is tis..)..etc..
i hurt myself is because of who!!!!!!i jus don wan o say..i feel tat i have alot of barrel..i jus don know to say..i wan to say sth out..but i know i cant say over you..so as well i jus shut my bloody mouth up..let you scold all you wan..i end up crying in my room alone...i hate to show my weakness side of me infront of ppl..
i make the first step as i believe him as he my God!!!!my saviour!!!!!and getting to know more about him as the day i walk closer to him..wat wrong wif tat!!!!!???someone tell me!!!!!!i alway in the dark of my parent.. i have bear tis for 3 year!!!!!i cant stand tis any more!!!wat should i do!!!!!is my fault to make the first step so!!!!it ur problem to believe in me or wat!!!!!!!!is none of my problem lor!!!ass..i have grown up!!!!!!!!stop treat me like a kid!!!!!!!!!i have my own decision!!!!!i know wat i am doing!!!!no need you to tell me!!!!!i jus enjoy more with my CG ppl!!!!!i enjoy their love and care they give!!!!even their event is really very high and cool something!!!!ur as the parent cant even give!!!!!wat fit do you being a parent of mine!!!!!pls la!!!!!don say i expectation high lor!!!!!is you being a parent is very lousy lor!!!!!!!!why i lie to you!!!!??? now who to blame???!!!though i said it...at the end is you as the parent!!!!wen i am pri4 my life is a piece of shit!!!!(may shit is better than me!!!) you don even let me out..cant have a own phone..have own phone no private..i aso human being ler!!!!!i aso need private lor!!!!pls la!!!!!wat do you treat me as!!!!!!????ur dog ar!!!!!!!???do i look as one of them!!!!???freedom!!!!???wen do i have it!!!???wen i am pri4 and of the year!!!???wat this!!!!ppl have their freedom wen they are in pri3!!!??me ler!!!!bull shit man!!!!!pui!!!!!i don wan tis type of life lor!!!!!save it urself...i don need it!!!!!!wen i pri4 you let me out more offen or don reject me..i wont lie to you to go out play lor!!!!!!!!!!!anyway la hor!!!pls la!!!!i don need you this type of bloody ass parent lor!!!!!pui!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!kns!!!!!!!!don believe me and not letting me out!!!!as well lock me up with thousand million locker!!!!!!!!better rite!!!!!!???ur will be very dam bloody happy le lor!!!!!KNN!!!!
i feel better now!!!if scold infront of them more better..unless lor..i don even dare..-.-i will get better in time to come((: no worries me k?((:
feeling horrible now..i don't know how to explain my abstacle!!!
jus sobbing..T.T i jus wan to leave tis family..i hate tis family..
they jus don't belong to me.. i don't mind growing up without them..
i don need their love or care!!!! they don fit me!!!!i hate them!!!!!
YA!!!i make the first step so wat!!!!!is my step aso not urs..
i don need ur care!!!ur care don mean anything to me!!!!
your being a parent to me is selfish, no happiness, no care, no fun, don understand me and wat i think, onli know how to gang up to scold me(wat kind of parent is tis..)..etc..
i hurt myself is because of who!!!!!!i jus don wan o say..i feel tat i have alot of barrel..i jus don know to say..i wan to say sth out..but i know i cant say over you..so as well i jus shut my bloody mouth up..let you scold all you wan..i end up crying in my room alone...i hate to show my weakness side of me infront of ppl..
i make the first step as i believe him as he my God!!!!my saviour!!!!!and getting to know more about him as the day i walk closer to him..wat wrong wif tat!!!!!???someone tell me!!!!!!i alway in the dark of my parent.. i have bear tis for 3 year!!!!!i cant stand tis any more!!!wat should i do!!!!!is my fault to make the first step so!!!!it ur problem to believe in me or wat!!!!!!!!is none of my problem lor!!!ass..i have grown up!!!!!!!!stop treat me like a kid!!!!!!!!!i have my own decision!!!!!i know wat i am doing!!!!no need you to tell me!!!!!i jus enjoy more with my CG ppl!!!!!i enjoy their love and care they give!!!!even their event is really very high and cool something!!!!ur as the parent cant even give!!!!!wat fit do you being a parent of mine!!!!!pls la!!!!!don say i expectation high lor!!!!!is you being a parent is very lousy lor!!!!!!!!why i lie to you!!!!??? now who to blame???!!!though i said it...at the end is you as the parent!!!!wen i am pri4 my life is a piece of shit!!!!(may shit is better than me!!!) you don even let me out..cant have a own phone..have own phone no private..i aso human being ler!!!!!i aso need private lor!!!!pls la!!!!!wat do you treat me as!!!!!!????ur dog ar!!!!!!!???do i look as one of them!!!!???freedom!!!!???wen do i have it!!!???wen i am pri4 and of the year!!!???wat this!!!!ppl have their freedom wen they are in pri3!!!??me ler!!!!bull shit man!!!!!pui!!!!!i don wan tis type of life lor!!!!!save it urself...i don need it!!!!!!wen i pri4 you let me out more offen or don reject me..i wont lie to you to go out play lor!!!!!!!!!!!anyway la hor!!!pls la!!!!i don need you this type of bloody ass parent lor!!!!!pui!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!kns!!!!!!!!don believe me and not letting me out!!!!as well lock me up with thousand million locker!!!!!!!!better rite!!!!!!???ur will be very dam bloody happy le lor!!!!!KNN!!!!
i feel better now!!!if scold infront of them more better..unless lor..i don even dare..-.-i will get better in time to come((: no worries me k?((:
heart broken into pieces!!T.T
byee~ILY & God Bless You!!
27.3.10 @ Saturday, March 27, 2010
hiie..ps..i no time to post..
now busying will my homework and project..
yeterday go out wif my sch band mem to watch my conductor performance..
the zheng hua band is dam super good lor...
we cant compare wif them..
specially their tronbone section dam strong de..
it is the best performance i ever had sia..
yeterday shi watch the kidnapper ler..i aso wanna watch..
must find time watch le..
yeterday outing abit bore..i mean on the way there..
cuz they keep tokin among themself ..
but got tok to me ait la..
haiz..exam coming bloody soon sia..
must jyjy le..
wish me and you good luck(:
byeee..
1.3.10 @ Monday, March 01, 2010
sick
why parent every small things aso wan to control me??!!
cant you treat me , jus like teenager..
i hate you man!!
i wan to leave this house!!!!!
they even scold me cuz of litte money is spent..
i don a family that see money to tat important...
i am sick of this..
i cant ta-han man..
i wan to leave the house...]]]]]]]:
heart broken..
20.2.10 @ Saturday, February 20, 2010
sian..
looking forward to chatlet..
looking forward to chatlet..
hi!(: bck to post..
2day darm bore sia..
morning on9..
afternoon out wif parent..
out wif parent to buy thing..
bck home at 7+pm..
only again..chat wif frenz..
i so long winded..lol
gtg..bb..loveu..gal..
19.2.10 @ Friday, February 19, 2010
feeling pain-.-
hi..long time no post le..
how ur cny??
my cny quiet fun la..
get quiet alot of red packet..
very sian..no one ask me out..
next week then go out..
2day never go sch and cca..
i change section le..
i change to percussion..
so sad sia..miss my instrument..
2day so lol..shi ask me call her..
chat awhile..about the fucking guy..
but at least am relief tat shi and pear not angry wif me..
nth to post le..bb..loveu gal..
14.1.10 @ Thursday, January 14, 2010
moody and high!
Get well soon cx!!
Get well soon cx!!
hi..bck to post..
hated my parent most..
hw getting more i think..
2day after sch go meet shi they all..chatting..
like to be wif them forever!!!
i am afraid tat one day they will leave me ><
bye gal.loveu.
6.1.10 @ Wednesday, January 06, 2010
rushing??
happy belated birthday kenny(:
happy belated birthday kenny(:
hi..bck to post once again..
2 day never been update..
i wen to 2D class..
but wish to go to 2c..it is ok..
this few day jus rushing my hw..
worse part is my chinese had lot of thing need to do lor..
will be rite bck..bye guy.loveu .
3.1.10 @ Sunday, January 03, 2010
sian dao...
happy late new year!!(:
happy late new year!!(:
hi bck to post..(:
yetersday wen to malaysia..wif parent..
we wen to market there..
there de market is totally different frm here..
there de market is dry market..
we shop around..bought bubble/chewing gum..
still bought dvd..cloths(:
then wen around searching for bbq..at 'the store'
the bbq was nice..but a bit expensive man..about RM51..
then go there eat supper..dotts..
then go buy another set of bubble and chewing gum for shi and pear..
srry lor..never buy for others..nxt time ba..(:
then time to go bck jiao..
then 2day wake up at 8+am..
so tire..cuz yetersday sleep at 3+am ma..
then need to go to my lao gu house pray..
go there awhile only lor..eat finshed jiao..then all my relative..
then we wen to my lao yi house cuz she not feel well..so sad..
reach there le..saw my gor gor..{tat mean is my lao yi de son la}..
going to repair his handpone..
haha..then at lao yi house play chinese chess..
play with my piao mei and piao di..
unfair lor..piao di help his mei {tat mean my piao mei la}..
anyway got papa help me ma..
it is fair la..
then first time play wif them..
haha..lol..lose in the first match..but win in the second match so happy..
then all of us wen home..
we send my er koo..{tat mean my papa de er jie} home..
then we wen go home le lor..
reach home at 5+..
sleep for awhile..then go tution.. so tire now..
kay.byee gal.loveu..
thursday,december 31,o9
31.12.09 @ Thursday, December 31, 2009
sian..
Happy Birthday Syalihah(:
hi..bck to posting(:
hmmm..
3 more day school gotta reopen..sian..
but prefer go sch then staying at home lor..
stay at home..parent keep nag..
ear will rot one day..
go out one day..
say i everyday go out..chicken la..
change subject ba..
mention more is bad for health..
hai..2day shi and pear go out..
about 3+pm call me go out..
they sound like in danger..
but don know wat happen to them..
ask them wat happen..
keep saying faster come,faster come..
abit worry about them..
wish tat they are safe..
packing my room..
bye gal.gtg.loveu..
WEDNESDAY,DECEMBER 30,O9
30.12.09 @ Wednesday, December 30, 2009
m:mellow
hi guy back to posting..i will be recently posting..cuz i am not allow to go out):
but 2day i allow went out cuz i needed to buy things..
i pei shi ying go to hougang sec as it is her sch to buy books..
but surprisingly all the books were out of stock..wat a jk rite..but it is true..
after tat we went to hougang mall popular buy my exerise book(:
the popular 2day was quite crowded..the queue was long too..
buy finshed,we shop around hougang mall..
then we go bck to sengkang..
we went to substructure park find seat there..then sit down there chat lor..
chat for awhile,mum call me to settle my dinner myself..
then shi ying pei me go kou fu eat..then we aso ask to pear come down to find us..
chat for awhile pear go home le):
then we slow walk home lor..
shi..know i abit despress, she try to make me laugh..so happy..go out wif shi..
thks shi..it don make me totally happy but it will make away abit of my saddness(:thk!(:
btw..shi and pear goin out to meet a guy outside..
so i wish you gd luck!but shi..don run away hor!..you run away again..he surely will jio you out again de!
gd luck gd luck!!!!(((:
kay.bye guy.loveu.
TUESDAY,DECEMDER 29,O9
29.12.09 @ Tuesday, December 29, 2009
hai..
hi..bck to post(:
feel down..trying to cheer up..
frenz around me,will jus brighten up my life..
without them life is jus like black and white world..thks frenz(:
but of cuz ppl inorge me..i aso don know why..dot..
hate ppl inorge..
god created us but i don precious my life..
i had no idea why i write this..it jus suddenly pop out in my mind..
nite having tution and meet shi and pear later(:woo..so happy..lol..dot..
wanna go out jus scare to my **** parent):
bye.loveu gal.(:
feel down..trying to cheer up..
frenz around me,will jus brighten up my life..
without them life is jus like black and white world..thks frenz(:
but of cuz ppl inorge me..i aso don know why..dot..
hate ppl inorge..
god created us but i don precious my life..
i had no idea why i write this..it jus suddenly pop out in my mind..
nite having tution and meet shi and pear later(:woo..so happy..lol..dot..
wanna go out jus scare to my **** parent):
bye.loveu gal.(:
SUNDAY,DECEMBER 27,09'
27.12.09 @ Sunday, December 27, 2009
SOB
hi guy i bck to post.
long thime no post le wor..
lot of things had happen..
yetersday wen out,for class gathering.
btw late merry christmax(:
qurral wif parent yetersday,quite a bad mood..sobbed..
i need my own freedom..i hated to be control..more you wanna control,i hated you..
this blog will be dead until the sch reopen..
kay.bye.loveu guy..
long thime no post le wor..
lot of things had happen..
yetersday wen out,for class gathering.
btw late merry christmax(:
qurral wif parent yetersday,quite a bad mood..sobbed..
i need my own freedom..i hated to be control..more you wanna control,i hated you..
this blog will be dead until the sch reopen..
kay.bye.loveu guy..
TUESDAY, NOVEMBER 10, 09'
10.11.09 @ Tuesday, November 10, 2009
hi guy i bck to post.
2day don feel like posting lor..
some one call grace sia, forced me to post. haha lol.
haha. not she force one la, she yetesday force de.
i so boring during my hoilday. it full of band practice.
so tired. sian.
i think sabin alrdy break wif bryan le ba. by reading bryan blog.
but grace, i don think bryan found any other chaz bo la. cus blog never write but may be he found aso don wan tell ba.
but sabin don be sad, you can find a better guy de!!! jyjy!!! cheer up!! grace and me surport you watever happen!!! kk :) i think grace aso like tat ba. if not then sorry lor. sian lor, ytd sleep so late 2day wake up so early. all becoz the stupid new neighour stay rite on top of my house. early in the morning about 9+ revonote her house fuck tar. i having a head now becoz of not having enough sleep all becoz of her bloody fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hate her!!!!!
bye, so tired.loveu guy. <3>
2day don feel like posting lor..
some one call grace sia, forced me to post. haha lol.
haha. not she force one la, she yetesday force de.
i so boring during my hoilday. it full of band practice.
so tired. sian.
i think sabin alrdy break wif bryan le ba. by reading bryan blog.
but grace, i don think bryan found any other chaz bo la. cus blog never write but may be he found aso don wan tell ba.
but sabin don be sad, you can find a better guy de!!! jyjy!!! cheer up!! grace and me surport you watever happen!!! kk :) i think grace aso like tat ba. if not then sorry lor. sian lor, ytd sleep so late 2day wake up so early. all becoz the stupid new neighour stay rite on top of my house. early in the morning about 9+ revonote her house fuck tar. i having a head now becoz of not having enough sleep all becoz of her bloody fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! hate her!!!!!
bye, so tired.loveu guy. <3>
THURSDAY, OCTOBER 29,09
29.10.09 @ Thursday, October 29, 2009
hi guy, am back to post again.
i have 2 good news and 1 bad news.
which one do you wan to know first?
help you choose?! kk?
i will tell you the bad news frirst.
the bad news is... monday i kana caught at cp cold storeage.
sad lor, next time canot go there. i caught becos i steal the things there la.
next time i don wan to go to cp de cold storeage and level b1 le!!!
next is the good news.
the good news is...i have good result and i have promote to normal acd le!!!
so happy about tat. tat is wat i wish for(: but go normal acd must work even harder le.next good news is i don have any bad news le! i know my second news is lame(: but next year go normal acd, i will surely miss my normal techical frenz de lor. i miss almost every one of them. i miss the time we play, fight, chat and our team work and more. hmmm. let me say about them.
JueJun, she is my good frenz. she is very choi de! we every time will go out after sch wif our good frenz too, YingXin.
YingXin, she is a very cute de girl lor. but she like to act cute. (jkjk). every time we fool around lot lor. we fool around untill juejun scold us lor. sad.
AiWei, she is quite pretty girl too. sge alway will check her hair will it messy anot. a comment qn she will ask is, is my hair messy?... haha lol rite? first day of sch i thought she abit lol lor.
syalihah,is my good good frenz aso. we last time love to stay back alot! but now i seldom stay back le. i only stay back when i need to. and wish you and hisyam together forever.
Dewi, i hate her alot lor! especially her attitube. but we still are frenz(:
Amirul, his nickname is call bully. becos he last time bully me alot lor. he is a very good guy la. but i don like him la. he is suit wif raf. wish you and raf together happily ever after.
Ivan, my gor. he every time bully me de. every time call me pig one. sad. and everytime never go sch de. haiz. wish him to focus in ur study ba.
Cui xu, my gor aso. sad lor , aso another one tat bully me!! every time we will fight over a things de. sian. wont grow up de him. and one more thing is, he is darm show off his result de lor, when he get very high mark. wish him focos and study hard for his study ba.
Mirza, my very good frenz. beinging of the is darm funni de lor. i tat time i spell wrongly of his name then he keep on nag at me but now we are frenz. nvm. wish him study harder for sec2 or 1 work.
Danial racal, joker. he is a funni guy de lor. like to joke wif us. like to put gel on his hair. so funni. good luck for next year.
Choon min, ok ok la , he. i not very close to him. so good luck ba.
Iqkran, he? pro in science. i win him twice. haha. same like cx like to show off his science result and like to compare to.
Jun xiang, like to sleep in reccess time. but he is darm pro in com. cant beat him. sad. but he must improve his chinese. good luck.
Kenny, nickname? kelly. nice name rite! kenny is juejun de gor. he very wat de lor. and i not very close to him.
marcus? go hell then.
Ming feng, ok de guy la but he abit prevertic lor. not very close to him too.
solihin, cute and funni guy. we use to fight over a thing too.
that all le ba. those never mention, so ps lor. cus i cant rmb still got who ma.
wish you good luck ba. i wish you all untill i got no luck le so you all must aso tagged me to wish me good luck ar!!!
ok, let stop here ba. byee.iloveu. take care.
i have 2 good news and 1 bad news.
which one do you wan to know first?
help you choose?! kk?
i will tell you the bad news frirst.
the bad news is... monday i kana caught at cp cold storeage.
sad lor, next time canot go there. i caught becos i steal the things there la.
next time i don wan to go to cp de cold storeage and level b1 le!!!
next is the good news.
the good news is...i have good result and i have promote to normal acd le!!!
so happy about tat. tat is wat i wish for(: but go normal acd must work even harder le.next good news is i don have any bad news le! i know my second news is lame(: but next year go normal acd, i will surely miss my normal techical frenz de lor. i miss almost every one of them. i miss the time we play, fight, chat and our team work and more. hmmm. let me say about them.
JueJun, she is my good frenz. she is very choi de! we every time will go out after sch wif our good frenz too, YingXin.
YingXin, she is a very cute de girl lor. but she like to act cute. (jkjk). every time we fool around lot lor. we fool around untill juejun scold us lor. sad.
AiWei, she is quite pretty girl too. sge alway will check her hair will it messy anot. a comment qn she will ask is, is my hair messy?... haha lol rite? first day of sch i thought she abit lol lor.
syalihah,is my good good frenz aso. we last time love to stay back alot! but now i seldom stay back le. i only stay back when i need to. and wish you and hisyam together forever.
Dewi, i hate her alot lor! especially her attitube. but we still are frenz(:
Amirul, his nickname is call bully. becos he last time bully me alot lor. he is a very good guy la. but i don like him la. he is suit wif raf. wish you and raf together happily ever after.
Ivan, my gor. he every time bully me de. every time call me pig one. sad. and everytime never go sch de. haiz. wish him to focus in ur study ba.
Cui xu, my gor aso. sad lor , aso another one tat bully me!! every time we will fight over a things de. sian. wont grow up de him. and one more thing is, he is darm show off his result de lor, when he get very high mark. wish him focos and study hard for his study ba.
Mirza, my very good frenz. beinging of the is darm funni de lor. i tat time i spell wrongly of his name then he keep on nag at me but now we are frenz. nvm. wish him study harder for sec2 or 1 work.
Danial racal, joker. he is a funni guy de lor. like to joke wif us. like to put gel on his hair. so funni. good luck for next year.
Choon min, ok ok la , he. i not very close to him. so good luck ba.
Iqkran, he? pro in science. i win him twice. haha. same like cx like to show off his science result and like to compare to.
Jun xiang, like to sleep in reccess time. but he is darm pro in com. cant beat him. sad. but he must improve his chinese. good luck.
Kenny, nickname? kelly. nice name rite! kenny is juejun de gor. he very wat de lor. and i not very close to him.
marcus? go hell then.
Ming feng, ok de guy la but he abit prevertic lor. not very close to him too.
solihin, cute and funni guy. we use to fight over a thing too.
that all le ba. those never mention, so ps lor. cus i cant rmb still got who ma.
wish you good luck ba. i wish you all untill i got no luck le so you all must aso tagged me to wish me good luck ar!!!
ok, let stop here ba. byee.iloveu. take care.
MONDAY,OCTOBER 19,09
19.10.09 @ Monday, October 19, 2009
hi guy, am back to post again.
2day at home so sian.
so today go out wif pear.
actually jj got go, jus tat her mother don allow aso no choice.
shi ying? she surely don wan to go de lors. everytime stay at home.
ask her out, she every time wans to stay home use com.
last time, if we act like her now rite , she waill scold me or pear like don know wat lors.
haiz . i miss the time shi ying , pear amd me go out. sad sio. ):
every time go out wif pear only, every time shi ying "ban shen"(leave us alone) but i aso canot say like tat la. cuz we aso got chat in msn or sms ma. (: but at least she still sms. (: i will be very very happy too. don know next year shi ying wan wat birthday present.(i wonder.)
i maybe jus wan a soft toys and ear piece. may be ear piece i buy myself cuz ear piece very expansive. i don wan ppl spent too much money to buy my present. but now i bo money to buy. must take take time to save money le. ): sian now no money, and now aday take money from parent i abit guilty. sad. don know wat to do. haiz. srry.
ok le la bye.iloveu guy. take care. (:
2day at home so sian.
so today go out wif pear.
actually jj got go, jus tat her mother don allow aso no choice.
shi ying? she surely don wan to go de lors. everytime stay at home.
ask her out, she every time wans to stay home use com.
last time, if we act like her now rite , she waill scold me or pear like don know wat lors.
haiz . i miss the time shi ying , pear amd me go out. sad sio. ):
every time go out wif pear only, every time shi ying "ban shen"(leave us alone) but i aso canot say like tat la. cuz we aso got chat in msn or sms ma. (: but at least she still sms. (: i will be very very happy too. don know next year shi ying wan wat birthday present.(i wonder.)
i maybe jus wan a soft toys and ear piece. may be ear piece i buy myself cuz ear piece very expansive. i don wan ppl spent too much money to buy my present. but now i bo money to buy. must take take time to save money le. ): sian now no money, and now aday take money from parent i abit guilty. sad. don know wat to do. haiz. srry.
ok le la bye.iloveu guy. take care. (:
SUNDAY,OCTOBER 18,09(:
18.10.09 @ Sunday, October 18, 2009
yo man.am back to posting(:
exam finally finshed. wish everyone can pass ba.
during exam week, pear, jie, mei, went to bg wat we like and need.
the langart(english) paper 1 is difficult, but pp2 is easy(:
math? maths pp1 is abit difficult, but pp2 is abit east only la.
chinese? chinese pp only have one pp so it is easy(:
science? science pp1 is ok la, is it still solvable, pp2 is bit easy only lors.
cpa(computer)? cpa pp1 is practical, it is easy but i don have enough time to do, cuz my type slow mah.bo bian.
before the exam very sad la. wan to sch dental free check. but my back teeth have do some treatment lors.so pain!):
btw i now in band, i have change my instrument to eupho(: am so happy about that sia.
ok bye.iloveyou guy. take care(:
exam finally finshed. wish everyone can pass ba.
during exam week, pear, jie, mei, went to bg wat we like and need.
the langart(english) paper 1 is difficult, but pp2 is easy(:
math? maths pp1 is abit difficult, but pp2 is abit east only la.
chinese? chinese pp only have one pp so it is easy(:
science? science pp1 is ok la, is it still solvable, pp2 is bit easy only lors.
cpa(computer)? cpa pp1 is practical, it is easy but i don have enough time to do, cuz my type slow mah.bo bian.
before the exam very sad la. wan to sch dental free check. but my back teeth have do some treatment lors.so pain!):
btw i now in band, i have change my instrument to eupho(: am so happy about that sia.
ok bye.iloveyou guy. take care(:
Thursday , september 17 ,09 <3
17.9.09 @ Thursday, September 17, 2009
2day wake up at 6.44am ..
almost last for sch ...i bring bck the instrument ...
de instrument is darm darm heavy lor ...
on the way to the band room ..
the instrument case cut my finger...sad la ..anyway it is not pain la...
2day i never go for band practice ...cuz my stomach very darm pain ...
but sian la 2morrow still got band practice..body now ache like don know wat ...
2morrow got class test ..never study ...any way i very long revise le la ...heckcare le ...
i fail , fail lor ...sian.... <3<3
stop here ?! <3
almost last for sch ...i bring bck the instrument ...
de instrument is darm darm heavy lor ...
on the way to the band room ..
the instrument case cut my finger...sad la ..anyway it is not pain la...
2day i never go for band practice ...cuz my stomach very darm pain ...
but sian la 2morrow still got band practice..body now ache like don know wat ...
2morrow got class test ..never study ...any way i very long revise le la ...heckcare le ...
i fail , fail lor ...sian.... <3<3
stop here ?! <3
Labels: test everyday??
Wednesday,Setptember 16, 09
16.9.09 @ Wednesday, September 16, 2009
today i wake up at 6.33am
almost late for school...
2day in sch was bore and sickening ...
and this month very sad ler ...
quite alot of couple break...
some tell me some i find out myself ...
dotz...very you all break !!!!
haiz nvm ... 2day i saw sab.. at cp ... she look ok la although she break wif her stead le ...
most important is to cheer up !!! :) hai more and more important is exam is coming very soon !!!!!!!! btw i have not prepare any of my subject ...i think...
wa .. now i darm darm not enough money to pay my parent phone bill and other bill le la ...
i in dead .. this month de hpone bill surely kana confistake...de la ...or even kana scolding ...haiz...heckcare first la ... any way de hpone bill haven come yet ...sian la ... 2morrow got band ...somemore only one senior go only ...another one come later ....good la ....sian la ...
can not find reason to skip band le ...bo ban have to go band ....haiz...cca?? stop here le ba ... :)
almost late for school...
2day in sch was bore and sickening ...
and this month very sad ler ...
quite alot of couple break...
some tell me some i find out myself ...
dotz...very you all break !!!!
haiz nvm ... 2day i saw sab.. at cp ... she look ok la although she break wif her stead le ...
most important is to cheer up !!! :) hai more and more important is exam is coming very soon !!!!!!!! btw i have not prepare any of my subject ...i think...
wa .. now i darm darm not enough money to pay my parent phone bill and other bill le la ...
i in dead .. this month de hpone bill surely kana confistake...de la ...or even kana scolding ...haiz...heckcare first la ... any way de hpone bill haven come yet ...sian la ... 2morrow got band ...somemore only one senior go only ...another one come later ....good la ....sian la ...
can not find reason to skip band le ...bo ban have to go band ....haiz...cca?? stop here le ba ... :)
Labels: band band band ... tired ?